hernanatalia

2009-08-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

Shifted to the site below. Do re-link/link if you may.. Please do not tell others. Let them find out themselves. I don't like the idea of the "horse's mouth". You know your site being the information passed around. Neither do you I assume, right? So yarh. This blogger will be kept safe. And am still adapting to my new diary..

2009-08-02T01:31:00.000-07:00

Moving out, soon ..

2009-07-26T02:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Fighting with Beckett. After 3weeks of not seeing him. Haha.. Fighting's story line was weak. We thought the story would make some sense out of it. The best part was only his drive for fighting and the scenes. That's all. Was a little weird when the timings for Public Enemies were like 3hours apart. It was just release right.. Should have more slots.. Pfft. WTH. And we saw the poster of 'Up'. We agreed on watching it. Hahah.. It's the only animated/cartoon that we would watch other then Shrek(I think uhk).

As usual long time no see, so many many many many things that we shared. From school to the gang to our old friends to his buddies to his sister to kids stomping along the corridor early in the morning to of cause Scrambler! Hahah. :D And oh! Mak cik keropok too! Too many! There may be a plan to break fast at Melaka just to eat A&W. Semangat dok! Insya. Amin.

MS was freaking packed with Reds so Beckett literally drag me(gently la ehk) into Zara to avoid the crowd. And he might hate Red for now. Hahha. And we watched MJ danced on the small HMV television. Wow-ed by his steps. Best. Best. And a random question was asked, "What's jelly fish in Malay?" I laughed when he replied "Obor-obor!!".. I thought he was kidding. As to me obor-obor may equal to many many torches. Ok. Lame. So I checked the Kamus Dewan ...

You always make me laugh. That's one of the reason why I love you.. :)

Earlier on today,

I hate it when ...
they don't take the blame when it's obviously they are in the wrong
they think that they are the boss of me
they drag their footwear while walking
they think that they are ALWAYS right
they talk and don't make sense at all
they don't think before they preach
they think that they are "Prophets"
they are such a pain in the ass
they force others to do things
they act "yah-yah-papaya"
they don't have gratitude
they are oblivious
they are in denial
they assume
they lie

2009-07-24T06:13:00.000-07:00

2009-07-22T04:53:00.000-07:00

Man loading his stuff into a truck. As read from Yahoo.Prettiest horizon(?) I've seen in a photograph..

It was just indescribable..

Almost there..

Just black and white. My kind of colour, maybe..

And this is with Gandhi. Pretty..

2009-07-20T02:47:00.000-07:00

I loved Sundays as always. And the recent Sunday was even loved more. It was a money making Sunday. Best. Best. Choosy individuals were often seen. Business has it's ups and down. Alhamdulilah ours kept coming in. Dinner at Lau Pa Sat was a pain in the stomach. Me, Man, Yazid, Din were bulling Ain. Her sentences were all jumbled up that we all could understand but it sounded wrong. Especially the 'Satu orang due ayam'. Haiyoo~ Ain, you better not teach other people's kids the wrong stuff.

I would give many thanks for Man/Zai/Rozadi for driving and keeping us company. Syaz and Fir for the mini lunch session and also changing our money under the scorching Sun. And to Izyan for dropping by and gave a massive hug. Mmmm.. Best! And maybe Yazid for packing up. Ha ha.. Having good company is equal to a circle. It always turns and turns and turns and never get sick of turning. And to have Mr Boyfriend around is even better! I enjoyed the company.. Thank you!

Estatic.
Alignment In Progress. lol
Me.Syaz.Ain
Ain&I.

Shareholders minus Syafiqah(L); Me.Ayu.Ain
Our humble stall..
Me.Izyan.Ain
Would somebody take me home?, I wonder..

2009-07-18T06:35:00.001-07:00

Want to know what's the link? Mummy dearest kept staring at my hand phone. And I went "Yes?". And she replied, "Did you know that your phone has something to do with Ashley Isham?". "Errr.. You mean he collaborated with Samsung after Coke Light?" She then points to my Mozilla shortcut. Kate anak mummy, search ajer la ehk.. :D

Someone close shared a story. It's one sided so from what we can assume is this. Dotdot should feel guilty as hell(my that someone close claims). And it wasn't the first. Dotdot was confused when "Me or (dotdot's fling)?" came popping out. *yak-dush* Obviously dotdot should choose 'Me' cause you're together like in a relationship, right? Now 'Me' is stressed up. We could say 'Me' is using 'Me's' defense mechanism or 'Me' really do love dotdot. What Me and that someone close did was advise and pray for the best.

**Dotdot, 'Me' and (dotdot's fling) are people that only Me and that someone close knows. So don't take it to heart.

I'm so excited for tomorrow! Can't wait!

2009-07-15T03:54:00.000-07:00

2009-07-13T03:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so gonna watch this. With or without Beckett. Depp's in it. Ouh-weee~. Best nyer. And I have the feeling that SG wouldn't show Inglorious Bastards. Just a feeling la. I'm hoping that everything will turn out just fine on Sunday. Praying for the best. Insya. Amin.

2009-07-10T08:53:00.000-07:00

I think I'm starting to miss you. I just like the feeling of Miss. That's when you tend to crave for that particular someone and it tends to occupy more space in the brain part and circulate more images of that particular someone in my head. Having the feeling of Love and Miss is nice. Balanced. I wonder if couples that meet everyday and hangout everyday. Would they know what Miss is? I mean do they really know? Don't they get sick? I mean everyday? Never mind. Drop it. What I'm trying to say here is I miss Mohd Razif Mahat. Dah. That's all.

2009-07-10T04:01:00.001-07:00

Ain and I've gotten a slot. Oh-so excited. Cannot wait! Hope you'd drop by. And prick your ears while you work your nimble fingers through the mountains of Gems and Pearls! :D

Flea.Fly.Flo.Fun @ The Substation Gallery
Indie Eclec-tric Flea Market
19th July 2009, Sunday. 12pm – 630pm.

45 Armenian Street
Singapore 179936

Free Entry
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To you who is reading this entery of mine. Do not act sotong uhuk. Come down. Do not where is Substation? *hiak-dush* :D

2009-07-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

I never see myself in a long term relationship. I never knew what love was and never felt it before. So this is my first. It feels good to be in love. When you feel good, you look good. :) I'm happy now. Alhamdulilah. Shukran. Favoritism ain't my thing but in this situation, I'll be glad to make an exception. Now I see, what loves means*sings*

"I can afford to like many girls but i can only love my Herna Natalia.. I never felt someone like you..
I hope we are built to last.. Happy 41st anni to you my love.. "

"Aww.. Insya. Amin. Even though you're far, you're always in my heart. I'm in love with a guy named Razif.
Happy 41st Monthsary dearie. Muuackz."

2009-07-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

Last night with Grandson. Caught Transformer: The Revenge Of The Fallen. Yarh. I know, we caught it later in the week. It was draggy lah. Honestly, I don't quite find it entertaining. We fell asleep while watching. Hahah. Being seated on the second row from the screen, our necks went sore after 150minutes or so. Dang! We talked about the license topic and NS. I told him that I have a feeling that he would end up in Police. He was shocked and puzzled why his friends and I said that. Well, its better than you-know-what right?

For this post I shall blog on a whole, rather than zooming in particular days and specific individual. If I may name, I would. If you have crossed the line that I lay, then I'll bitch behind your back like no body's business. You'll know. Cause the feeling upon knowing it, will be guilt my dear. I have eyes and ears.

Pedicure on Friday was Gossip-Girl liked. Very bitchy and "Grrrr.. Meeeeow!" kinda thingy. Me and Ain went to Pinc and was made to sit beside these two fugly morons from some hole. Being ourselves, Ain and I bitched about them(cause they were giving the "you don't belong here" kinda look). Ain caught them bitching and looking over our side. Complaining and whining. As usual Cher.. *roll eyes* One of them wore a freaking short purple skirt and twist her body which results in showing unwanted skin. Seeing that I said loudly "That's not the way to wear a skirt. Eeeew." She then turned and look at me. I did the same. So the bitching continues. Whining about having not enough fan to dry her pedi. We were like *roll eyes*. We agreed that she sit terkangkang that's why not enough! Ass! As we were making our payment, their tiny eyes still pinned on us. So again, I said loudly "A customer is limited to a fan here. *sticks left index finger out and wave it* Don't be choosy." Take that! We stick it back to your faces, you spoilt brats!

So last Tuesday, 30Th June was Izyan and Ain's last day of brewing coffee with us. Sad as it seems we have to let them go. Leaving behind sweet memories and laughter and gossips and silly attics. Ouh. What a wonderful memory. All the best in whatever you girlies are doing. To Izyan don't anyhow inject people with fluids uhk. If I'm sick, I want you to take care of me. Hehe. To Ain maintain your patience uhk. And don't tell their kids to bring tray to supermarket(inside joke).

Ain&IIzyan&IJ.Naz.Me.Shila.Kid.Ain.Bana

Moving on. Well school's pretty nasty towards me. Many projects and tests are pinned on my back. Project that carries the least CU is giving me hell. Wanting more researches and reports and what-not compared to a higher CU. Stoopid. School life's never fair. People tend to use you when you're kind/when you know a little more. People look down on you just because your better looking. People assume negative waves. People never know when to shut the fuck up. All I can say about them is "Stop taking, and start giving." Fugly people.

The future is still a mystery. All I know is what leads to my future is the choices that I have/had/will make/made. We are the ones who lead our own future and not others. If others are in your way, face them. Stand up to them and not fear them. You have your prerogative as a human. If you do not want, walk away from them. What they did to you, it will come back around. Let other people do it to them, and not you. Maybe other people will give them hell. As the saying goes "Biar orang buat pade kite, jangan kite buat pade orang."

I am also as Ice Queen. People in school gave that to Me. I kinda like it though. It sounds so mysterious, cold, dark, still etc. This is because I am expression-less. True. That's Me. I'm monotonous well, sometimes. I don't smile to strangers. I don't start conversations. I don't talk. I don't look you in the eye for a long period of time. Sometimes I just can't be bother by strangers around me. See all you want. Stare all you like. Gossip as you may. It doesn't interest me, okay.

Ice Queen :D

As the days pass, you tend to know the real side of someone. Their stripes starts to appear and their fangs starts to grow. People are never perfect unless, a Prophet.

2009-06-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

I'm not a Prophet. I'm not perfect, NOT. Neither are you. So, I suggest you to zip. Ok?

2009-06-22T03:10:00.000-07:00

This I'm Yours is better than J Mraz's. Look at the lyrics if you may Google. Well, here's part of it:

You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died(it was my aunt though)
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

Touching kan? I shed..

I miss you la Beckett.

2009-06-19T00:04:00.000-07:00

Wednesday night was Cuckoo! I didn't mean mean, it was more of fun and silly attics kinda thingy. The warmness among us were still there, as always. It was felt and it was indeed enjoyable. I couldn't ask for more company than The Gang. Thank you! They are the same ol people that I used to know 2years back(if my memory serves me right). Nothing have changed. Had a mini celebration for Taj and Man's birthday. Ease and Razif are new to The Gang and I hoped that we all get along well with each other. Insya. Amin.

And to Razif, I wished you were there. You wished the same too. I know. :)

The drug of the night..

Keycoh I tell you.

Done! NatSu.
Ain&Me
Entertaining ourselves as usual.

Nutella Cake. :)

Man's 20Th & Tajes' 21St. Belated.

Following day was picnic-cum-farewell for Izyan and Ain. They made up their mind to stop brewing coffee and focus on their real job with real money as rewards. All the best!

The afternoon was really warm not humid. Breeze in your face and tiny amount of sunlight shine upon your cheek. Aaah. Splendid! Taboo was fun and distracting the rival with our overly-pitched-on-purpose voice was even more fun. LOL. Riddles was one good time. Seeing other with eyebrows squeezing till unwanted lines emerge, was truly what I call Classic Faces. Hahah. Me and Ain shared the MRT and Country riddle. People took eons to solve the MRT's. Gosh. LOL.

The rest of the pictures are up in FB for your eyes consumption. Better get back with my projects. So not looking forward to Monday. Only cuckoo heads does. Sian~

J.Me.Izyan.Wai Han.Amirul(B).Hajar.Seph.Ain.Naz.Nathan.

Girl's Affair;Ain.Me.Izyan.Naz.
Ok. I miss Redang even more, now.
Just for the record. We're ...
in love ...
with the shades. Duh!

2009-06-18T04:22:00.000-07:00

I shall update once the pictures are up. And after I get all 4 of my Psychology quizzes and project(and Java macam sials) done. Psycho ed enough. You and I are stereotype-ians.

i.e People get into fights not because they want to show who's in authority but did it cause the other party was wrong/ have gone over the line. The fight serve as a "wake up call" for them but, we usually see it from the bad side and not the good side of fight. Which somewhat end with bad relations. Yes. You're in denial. We are stereotyping others. Yes we are. Thanks to Psychology I understand people more be it in nature or nurtured.

Ok. I'm missing you already, Beckett.

2009-06-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

Press PLAY. Worth your 5minutes. I laughed so hard that my temples and stomach hurts. OKGO.

Books. Books. Books. I want these books please.. I only managed to flip through Isaac's as the rest are neatly sealed last weekend. Saw the pages on Amazon. Goodness! I love it. These are the type of books I'm willing to read and buy with my own money or maybe I'll psycho Mom with my new Psychology skills that I've learn in school. LOL.

In Isaac's there are more pics than words. Pictures showing 'what fits best', 'what fits but more accessory needed', 'what does really fit' and 'the big no no's'. And they actually show what shoes fits what and with the usual 'big no no's' part to it. He's more of 'use what you have in your wardrobe. mix and match around. bright. electric' kinda style. You're forgivable if you don't understand.

I'm comming Chilie Crab! Wee~

Who are you to judge.

2009-06-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

Minutes to Midnight. My night with Grandson was great. Movie and Fisherman Wharf's. Best. Best. :) Random topics shared. And am touched when he talks about me, yes Me. Aaahh. Terharu. His Aunt whom he claimed 'she's more like a sister to me' and mother to The Tebam cousin of his, wants to know more about me. That touched me little. But the reason behind that was even more. I didn't realise that I was that recognisable. Shut up! Most of the time in FW we talked about the lost souls and such. Creepy. But we like. Haha. And one more thing, Drag Me To Hell wasn't scary at all. The audio that was overly pitched/recorded/composed whatever not. That made the "shockings". Watch online. And Grandson confessed that he had downloaded Hannah M last night. Obvious that he was gonna watch it. LOL.

Manage to watch a tiny bit of Alot Like Love.

Saya Suka Kamu, selalu.

2009-06-10T22:56:00.000-07:00

Have been too busy to update and am also lazy to rest my butt and getting my fingers working. Past week meaning starting from Wednesday till yesterday was I shall say well spent with loved ones and misses. Thank God for them!

Last Wednesday was sun tanning session with Ain, Fana and(partly) Mai. We had some real life story sharing about the opposite sex. Complicated I must say. All I can say, "Live for what you love. When you're happy, you look beautiful." What goes around comes back around. Chill. Let Him do the work for you. Chin up! (You know who you're). Ended with a addictive karaokae session. *Oh angin, sampaikan lagu ku padanya.. Yang sering pilu..*

So Thursday and Friday came along and it was work. Usual. No comments(except for Ayu's shift).

Saturday! Watched the movie that we longed for, Angels and Demons. Ya, I know it's out for a month or so. Did some shopping. It was so effing hot that we decided to train down from Orchard to Douby. Pemalas! Tahu! I was so-really-wanna-go to the FP sale and time wasn't on our side so we headed down after the movie. I wanted to get shoes and Grandson wanted to get T. We were both much "dah? tu ajer?". Empty handed.

As I went to bed. Tears flowing down my cheek after I say goodnight to Grandson without knowing that he actually wanted to do the same. With him noticing small detail about me. I'm touched. And I text ed, "Aww.. Hope we last. Insya. Amin.". "Insya we will.." I'm blessed with the love in my life. Be it family or friendship or BGR. It will be in my heart, always.

Sunday always comes too late. Went to Newton for this class under Starbucks at 10 freaking AM. I snoozed thrice and drag myself out of bed. It was a "common sense based" class. Tak perlu seh gi. That aside, I enjoyed the others company. Thanks guys! Makan pat kedai Mamak lagi perh. :D

I remembered the conversation I had with Grandson regarding his sister's engagement. We're both excited for her. Hehe. I'm not going due to some unforeseen circumstances. I strongly believe that every family has their own "gossip clan". And I want you to stay out of it.

Monday. In the midst of my beauty sleep, Ain rang and asked for replacement. So I agreed as it was 11AM. I glided to work. It was shopping after work at PP. I bought myself a dress. Pretty skin coloured one. :) Had dinner at Pastamania and loads of story to share. Be it good or bad, we still listened on to each others. Our lips are sealed.

Happy 40Th Monthsary to Us!

"Happy 40Th monthsary dearie! Look how far we've come. I hope we last. Insya. Amin. I love you! Muuackz."
"Wow.. That's fast huh.. I thought we just past the 39Th.. Haha.. Happy anni to you too.. I love you Herna Natalia! Muackzee."

Tuesday was yet another working day. This time it was fun with Nathan around. Crapping throughout shift. Looking at girls and boys. Hilarious. "Can see bout cannot touch." Boys will always be boys.

Yesterday was suppose to be my shift but I was way way too drained so I ask for replacement. I don't care who. I just want a replacement. Thank God ada. As usual I was up after noon. Tired okay. Ain beep me. Asking if I wanted to karaokae. I agreed.

Tomorrow is unwritten.

p.s I miss Fisherman's Wharf. We go this Sat, aite.

2009-06-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

The past week was a stressful and intense and jam packed and mentally exhausting and weird and panic-ky and non-Internet-ed and massive headaches constantly and character gossips among classmates and skipping lectures and tutorials and the usual routine of going to school and straight (minus a/or two lunch dates) back home and revisions, and repeats the process all over again.

My last Term Test paper ended in the morning which is equivalent to H-O-L-I-D-A-Y !! Baik! Good! Good! I'm oh-so loving it already. Watched my fair share of FoodNetwork and some episode of this revamping ala renovation of the room. Nice! Grandson's hols' starting on Monday.
Hope our wish come true.. Insya. Amin. :) Saya rindu bicep mu.. LOL

Monday evening was a sad one. My fave aunt went Umrah and will be returning only the 3rd week of June. And the week after will be my last kakak sedare of the batch before me getting engaged. And soon after that 2 of my abang sedare will be wed off. So fast! Then 10 years later would be my batch of cousins. Cousins whom are born plus minus 5years from my year. My mama would be 54years old then. I think she will still look pretty in her age. :)

Moving along. I'm gonna work alot and earn kachings to sustain myself. No kachings from Starbucks this month as I haven't step my size 6 foot on the black ceramic floor. :D Actually not really, cause pay is out on the 7Th and my first shift since God-knows-when would be Friday. So at least a two digit pay would roll in. Better than nothing right? I'm thinking of tutoring instead of brewing. *pondering*

Here are some of my misses and activities I long for. The list doesn't stop.

2009-06-02T01:57:00.000-07:00

Oh my, God I can't believe it I've never been this far away from You. IMY.

2009-05-26T03:02:00.000-07:00

I'm oh-so loving this song. The beat, the rhythm, the pitch, the frequency. In short, everything uhk! *sexy ladies extra long* I think their latest album emphasise on beat as in beat of the beats. Never mind. And oya! Fergie's "uncle-parta -liked" pants is cool. I want, can? Of course I can. Why did I ask you? I'm off to my revision. Chiaos!

hernanatalia.misses.beckett

2009-05-23T03:01:00.000-07:00

I'm on break from school load which I started after lunch. I really can't wait for the June hols to arrive. Grandson and Me are very much excited about it. Reduced school load and waking up at our own timing and late nights. We oh-so can't wait for it. Quick! Quick! That aside. Can't lose focus for now. I must 'force' myself to do revision everyday(almost). That aside.

Yesterday was suppose to be a gathering of the favourite barista. Nevertheless, those who attended was the favourites among the favourite. I don't mind. Due to some ya-ya-papaya only 6=S-I-X turned up. Had our 'fur-ied fis-th s-uop'. With green tea vs lemon tea. Tea is a good anti-oxidant! Yummy-licious! Had a fun share of laughter and gossips(especially the topic at SB. the purple female is soo-the tak lawa la Ayu Aly. macam datin sesat m'sia. and the topic at Sally's store too!) and the other girl-ly things.

All I can say is "You can only have fun with fun people around."

And I totally miss Mohd Razif Mahat. June ok? June.

For the sake of Tuty(in blue) we took. If not, mulot bising!

Izyan.Ayu.Me.Tuty.Ain

Album cover, perhaps.

Candid. I like.

Our girl-ly attics..

Preety right? Say it's preety. lol

2009-05-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

I'm back to the cyber world. School's playing mean to Me. Subject with a lower credit unit is demanding more than those with higher value. WTF. Most of my attentions are turned to projects and more of it due-ing soon before I realise. And not forgetting term testes. Mak i. Time's not on my side so does social life. Haish.

A tells me things about B. A thinks that B is mean. A's been cursing and swearing as B was being overly sarcastic(which is skeptical). B tells me about A. Questioning Me on A. My answers are based on my observation. A and B are 'repelling' with them knowing. They are in denial I tell you. What's more interesting is that they both are male species. *evil smirk*

////////Thursday-14Th

I can see partially. See what others are like in nature. Being their own self's and not putting on any facade. Some are well, I must say fugly. What makes them behave in this manner? Well, it's basically their way of thinking; their concepts and beliefs and stands and ideology and whatever not you call it. The way of thinking is structured liked. Thinking only in a path and not thinking creatively nor taking it at another angle. Diversity. They need to be conditioned and natured.

There are others who over think things. And loves to assume this and that which turns out to be false assumptions. And in return ruining the bond with others. Pity. Never over think. Thinking too much over matters which aren't relevant. Get over it man. Or just drop it la. Stop stressing yourself up for no particular reason. Stress for something that gives you rewards, be it soon or later on. something that has value.

As I've said again, no names are used. Have the feeling? It's guilt..

Someone seeks respects from around. Someone wanted more from it. Asking for what I say is too much. What makes others respect you when you don't respect others in the first place? Respect ought to be given? Ha ha. It's given. Selfish I must say. Who ask(literally) for respect these days anyway? It's already given just be appreciative and don't ask for more. Stop asking people to boost your self esteem. It's you yourself to do it. Be responsible and willing to do on your own.

At the end of the day is You, yes you who run YOUR OWN life, not others. Who are the others to judge? You love You. That matters. It's your own responsibility to pick YOURSELF choices. Be rich deep within, not in the banks.

//////// Sunday-17Th

Motorcross was the sex for last night. Wuhoo~ The show started 30mins late and ended about an hour earlier. "Red bull bluuueee and sllliiiverrr.", airs for an hour or so during the event. Guys in dirt suites and full face and goggles are sexy. I like! Hothothot! It'd be good if the ramps were made of sand and the bike would get dirt on it and Yeah! Sexy!. It was really refreshing to see 4 KTMs tearing up the starry Saturday night. Priceless I tell you.

"Biler agak nye Razif nak ambek lesen ehk?" LOL.

It was like a rock concert. Girls went screaming and clapping and some jumping and all high and excited for it. All of that includes Me and Ain and Nad and Rad(this girl went all out). All the KTM-ians are smoking hot and gorgeous. And one of them has curly hair. Aaahh. Best! The others were busy taking vids and pics with their long nosed cameras.

Still having the Motorcross in the air, Fir imagines that his Gileira was a KTM and went all irritating with his pipe. Some even joked of getting bikes from the Scrambler family. LOL. Fir's irritating attics accompanied us throughout our journey.

Mak's Place for dinner. My prawn flew down to the floor with most eyes looking upon it. CB I went. And they all started LOL. And they joked. Saying that my prawn was still alive that's why it flew. And imagining what if the beef fried rice's beef was alive. :D It'd be moo-ing still. And what if we ate fish which is still alive. And Yazid said that the garnish would be eaten up by the fish. And after the laughter had stopped, Fir asked "Asal nan garnish nye part uhk? Aku tak tangkap.". LOL. Me, Man, Yazid went "Bodoh sak dek nie. Ketawe tapi taktau kenape. Dala. Takpe." :D

As usual, sending me home and chilling under my block. Every session was different and always have something new to talk and reminisce about. And Ain claims that Man tends to sound more like me, starting with the rolling of eyes and the tone of "seh". And she also says that I'm lazy to laugh instead, I'll be using 'LOL'. And soon enough Ain and Man started using it. They do really indeed sound like me. LOL. Ain.Ain. Man.Man.

Someone would if he could be there. It was our favourite. We would turn when the sound of the Scrambler is near and would soon comment about it and made our preferences and "if-es". Smiles and grins in return. Awww.. Long for you. xoxo

All the pictures are courtesy of Ain's LJ, Raymie's FB, Ain's Uncle's FB.
(tapi video aku punyer. lol)

Waaahhhhh!

Same but different, for now. :D

When Fir's with Nat and Nad.

Haithir.Me.Man.Rad.Fir.Nad.Ain

Me.Ain's Uncle.Ain

Should have 'set' my hair first. :/

I like! Alot!

2009-05-11T05:06:00.000-07:00

Sometimes some lessons are best learnt when it knocks you on your face. Indirectly version of "Nah! In your face." It's when the 'Ouch' factor's at it's highest and the lesson learnt is deep. Some are just oblivious to their surroundings and the emotions around that it irritates others, indirectly.

You may have your stand and ideology of things but sometimes, you need to know when to give in and use common sense. Life's never fair, Never. You don't get what you want. Instead of crying over spilt milk, just fucking adapt and work for a better solution. Get thinking man. So much for the silver spoon in your mouth.

I may not live for along time but, I've learned my lessons, well. I only change for the better and(maybe) for the worst. I've learnt to let go. Letting go of things that aren't a matter to me, anymore. Some things are better untouchable and leave out the rest. Things that won't affect you, be it "karma-ly", emotionally or whatever you can think of.

The people that you know aren't usually who you think they are. It takes time to learn(literally) them. Sometimes they don't turn out who you thought they would be. Some would bitch behind you and sometimes, stab you deep in the back. Sucky fella. But sometimes they are just sincere and you can see it through in them.

Life's a fucking mystery. You don't know what's ahead of you unless, you're Him which I doubt so.

I rest my case..

p.s Staring occassions are childish.

2009-05-08T05:04:00.000-07:00

A good friend once said to me ".. it's your hand he's holding at the end of the day." And the friend then smiled. Remembering it makes me smile when I'm caught in the jealousy frequency. :)

I fall in love with you again and again, everyday. Whenever we meet, I still have butterflies. I'm lucky to be in love with RazeevKu.

Happy 39Th monthsary dearie!

We are wierd.

We love it.

We love us. :)

2009-05-04T04:19:00.000-07:00

My Saturday(s); "That look in your eyes and the laughthers are all I need.. It makes my night. Thank you Grandson."

I'm lucky to be in love. You're just as curious as I am..

2009-04-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

Looking back at the photos of my previous holidays with my mates. I laughed and smiled my way through the entire album/s. And not forgetting the videos. I want a holiday during my holiday. Like literally, out of SG. I want happy air. Country side air. Air that is free from the city air. Air that smell of ocean or fresh dew of the morning. Aaahh. I want them all. Free from the bustling of the human inventions. Free from concrete walls. Free from wannabes and such.

Uno on the go..

Muke satu2.. Padahal ngok viking. :D

Su.Fir.Me.Taj or perhaps Taj SuNat Fir :D

Windy Oi..

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Buat macam rumah sendiri..

Almost to Redang.. Yey

Smelly+Silly faces

Whatever la ehk.. :D

Me.Ain

Sequel? Perhaps.

2009-04-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

I'm beat. Beat from school that is. It's a routine to end late almost everyday. My body and mind is still adapting to it. Beat. Beat. Beat. Unidentified frequency still echos through my head since early of the week. Burning up my body. Aching my muscles. Feels like needles poking from the outside in all directions. Some of the classmates aren't helping either instead, getting on my bones. They just don't know when to speak. Gosh!

I want a water bed to sleep on, with my favourite teddy pillow and my yellow thermal blanket. Weekend please come quick!

2009-04-26T21:01:00.000-07:00

Friday was my 2nd lunch date with Su. It has always been Friday. Standard. End at 12. :D Since last week I've been wanting to eat CJ but only managed to have their famous beef chili cheese fries. So we ended up having CJ since Su knows my craving. Thanks Su.. We kinda set a date for Taj and Man's gathering. And the details are still in working progress. Insya all 10 will be there. Amin. We had window shopping therapy and stationery shopping. And Giant's for my thumb drive.

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Last night was an affair with Grandson and his mates. Plan A=Movie=Failed Plan B=Bowl=Cancelled Plan C=Mind Cafe=Worked! We had a really great time there. Jurassic Jungle was the sex. Everyone was so or should I say VERY into it. Losing wasn't in our dictionary. We lessen the bone every round till it drop from 4 to 2. :D And taboo us girls kinda won. Cause we had two heads whereas the boys have 3. So yarh.

Dinie.Razif.Me.Fairuz.Farhan.

It was the first time I saw Grandson's sister face to face. Cuak(cuuuuhh-aaakk). I am. She's tall, really. Like sister like brother. :D And she's getting engaged this June. Congrats!

And this para is specially for Su(she likes this. :D). Dinner's at Lau Pa Sat. We had bbq-ed stingray and char kueh(with tiny amount of sotong on it) aside from our individual dishes. I asked Grandson to feed me some of the stingray. And he was doing some weird things with his utensils towards the stingray. And everyone were looking. "Ehk. Aku tak tahu uhk macam ne nak ambek nie bende. Ambek Kan?" So being his mates, both of them scooped it up for him. "Nak lagi, bilang ehk?" :D "You nak char kueh?" *quiet* "If you want, bilang. Cause just cocok and kasi. Senang." :D No comments la ehk.

Ann Siang's next. Yey! Missed by me(a lil by Grandson). And am watching Wolverine. Double yey! Insya. Amin.

I'm glad that Grandson's ITP's over. Like finally! And our nights aren't affected by it, anymore. Thanks Ain for lending me your ears during the past 2 months. Getting the attention that we've missed. And the talks and the laughters and the gaze and the smile and all the other sweet stuffs. We can make it better place. I'm grateful. Thank you.

Till the next update.
xoxo,
Heruna Nataria.

People sometimes dislike you cause you're just better looking.

2009-04-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

Kanninna. I owe you money or what till you give me that look? Wipe that cheeky smile off. I know larh I just did something new to my hair. No need to give me that look as if I know you or something. I wasn't at ease when I was at Ai-Tas for lunch. If you look at me, smile larh then I'll do the same. And don't walk off saying I'm anti social. I don't even know you larh for fuck sake. The Freshmen were hella weird bunch. Kenatlan-step-gothic. Eeeeww.. Halo! It's a school not a fashion week school. Aiyo!

I'm a puzzle at times. I know S is attractive. I've heard girls passing their comments went we walked pass in school. So? It doesn't affect me. Observing's my hobby and I noticed that S would throw glances. I'm not SS-ing okay. Takan S pusing stakat ngok lobang-lobang lecture hall? I think it's normal. It'll fade. It's S fault for repeating 2 modules and missing out on us as a class(maybe/maybe not). Roll eyes. I realise that I talk to S more then the rest of you but, that doesn't equal to crush. OMG. Hu-ha-ing to me about S when S suddenly appear out of nowhere with well toned biceps showing (I didn't drool nor think much. Just a glance I say. Grandson nye lagi sexy.. Bigger. :D). OK. *waves* Hi! What's you're point seh? The whole lot of you. As far as S and I can go is good friend. That's all. Enough said.

2009-04-19T00:50:00.000-07:00

My last entry(I guess). A day before school reopens its door to hell. My reaction to my TT was "Mak I.." The earliest I end is Fri. Standard. The rest are 4/5PM except for Tues 7PM. Haish. Just have to bear with it. It's normal. That will keep me busy and might put a halt to my social life. Maybe. My cds/gems or whatever you wanna call it is Psychology at least it's better than Grandson's Martial Arts during Chinese War. :D Sings: Every thing's gonna be alright.

Moving on.. Enough about school. Now a new fever has hit me. X Men! I saw the ad for it on OKTO. First in Asia cause of don't know what but still, I'm gonna watch it. Stop going 'Huh?' on me. There's a child within us for God's sake. And you guys should catch The Human Spirits, Mon 10PM. An eye opener to the wonders of the human spirits and God's will. Wow!

Previews of my-MUST-watch are:

I'm half in love with ~~Elizabeth~~ Beckett.

2009-04-18T05:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Me Ain Ilyaas Bana Shidah Shila Shukri cleaned the fucking big store. And we were down with men. Dang! The rest belongs to the Ninas group. Nevertheless, "All the way man.".

I'm in need of my beauty sleep now. Badly! Had my 5hours of sleep and I'm off meeting Grandson. I was late and frantically painted my face with God-knows-what. And Grandson said I look odd. Haha. Fast and Furious at Cathay. Awesome! Jordana Brewster is smoking hot. The weather is Hothotheat! So scorching hot. A scene at LJ was whatever. A mat rep with stick/straw in his mouth came in and ask for a job application form. OMG! It was totally a turn off! On a weekend and with your first impression. Pfft. Send your regards lah ehk. Ada hati nak kacau. Bute perh tak nampak siape sebela aku uhk? Grandson sape lagi. Kentals. We did enjoy each other's company though. :)

p.s. Grandson smiles for my new hair

2009-04-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

Pardon for the late update. Didn't have the time to really sit down and reminisce and type and upload. So here it goes..

Tuesday was an afternoon affair with the Lovables; Ain Shila Tuty. Headed to Purvis St for gaming session cum happy hour. :D Had an overly share of laughter during Snorta. Memory game of weird animal sounds cum snap! kinda tingy. And not forgetting the Jurassic thingy. A group not happy with our noise level. Come on lah it's a cafe not a library bitch! Mai was being much missed so we paid her a visit at Shaw Tower. Makin sihat ehk Mai. :D Off to town for some mini shopping. Had our supper at Lido. That was really fun. Should do this, again.

Wednesday was closing. Me Nathan Ain sang to the tune of Kaiser Chiefs' "Ruby Ruby Ruby Ruby". Me and Ain manage to get it done 30 minutes earlier. Judging it was done by two females, it was pretty fast. Had a small heart to heart talk. I'm dead emotional. :)

As for yesterday. I did something to my hair. :X Something only we know ehk Su. LOL. It took 4 freaking hours to get it done. Alamak. But the end result was "I love it!"

Aaaahh. Nanti kerje 8 jam plus spring cleaning. Penat la seh. Aiyomah.

Shila & Me

Aaaahhh.. Hahhahaha..

Me & Ain

Me:" Do you get what I'm saying here?" Tuty:"Eeeerrm.. Nope."

Ain Tuty Me Shila Mai

p.s. Boys are just as curious as us girls.

2009-04-15T00:04:00.000-07:00

Goosebumps are all I get watching it. I miss my early teens. It's when me and my gf and my cousins would go gaga after boy bands. N'sync. Blue. Human Nature. Westlife. BSB. 911. Code Red. Five. One thing in common is that they have the same dance routine in a group. "We move/dance as one kire kan". Enough. :D My gfs would go gaga too for malay boy bands which I could prolly remember New Boyz aje. LOL. Old school fever has hit me. So, adapt to it if you're a reader of mine. :D

Enough said. Am off to my closing shift which I'm partly looking forward to and partly not. Hmmm.. Depends. Shut up. Shut up. Who ever you're. I've listen after you've spoken. Like I've said inner beauty and integrity appeals to Me Most now.

hernanatalia.missses.beckett

2009-04-13T02:38:00.001-07:00

I just took the What gossip girl character are you? quiz and the result is Nate Archibald
(duh! it's not a girl). You're kind to people, but have a bit of a temper. People tend to like you, however you often wonder about the sincerity of it all. You really just want things to be simpler, because you haven't had a very simple life. (oh-so true)

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Saturday's dry at the start. In much of a disappointment. No aid: I'm used to it. So I decided to meet up with Kiki. And off to the Titans at M Sophia. God! Sungguh penat! Jello feeling! :D Thanks for the company! Next up was the most random night of all. Random meet up. At random fixed time. With random people. Random alley along Arab St. So yarh. My night was oh-so random. Naz pai-tao.

Kiki&Me
Me&"Cikgu"Izyan
Editted. Was dark.
Me.Shuk.Izyan.Boy kening.

Leon: The Professional was my all time favourite. Feelings. It can grow into something ...Beautiful even with your strange neighbour. Emotions reacts to the waves of feelings of bonds. It can get too strong to let it go. Tears starts to gather and burst when it's uncontrollable. Don't quite get what I'm typing. It's ok. My thinking is unlike the others. I'm cool.

Enough said. Am off to Mind's in less then 12hours. Am in need much of my beauty sleep. Maybe after ANTM. Enough time for my skin and my bones and my muscles and my ear drums to rest.

p.s I miss you

2009-04-10T08:13:00.000-07:00

I just cannot believe what someone has just said to me after me sharing what's been happening. A mini update I would say. Night after night my phone went silent and this is what I've got from you. I was advised to be more selfless.. OMG. I broke down in tears when I read it. :'( If the other people said that to me, I'd be okae. But out of many beings it came from you. You, you. You're saying I'm not selfless enough. Are you sure you wanna say that? I'm a Pisces. Do you know that I have always(and always have) think about others and their feelings before mine? And when I'm hurt or down, would people coming running consoling me? I guess not. :"( But I would do it towards others. And would the others have done the same? Would you? Like you've said people change. Some change for the better, then it will be good for the person and the surrounding. Yarh. And I personally think it applies to you. :'(

Sometimes I wonder why boys are insensitive at times. Seeing our pictures. It made me tear even more. :"( Where are you? I miss the old times. I miss you.. I really do. :'(

2009-04-08T00:27:00.000-07:00

Happy 38th Monthsary to Razif and I !!!
"Wah 38 mnths ya..Dats a long tyme.. Be it 38 mths, 38 days, 38 mins or 38 secs, my love 4 u remains e same e sec i lay my eyes on u.."

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Last night with Wilson was S-U-P-E-R !!He sounds good live. Real good. And his energy was just amazing. My first ever British indie rock band concert. Most of of the atendee were ang mohs. Less of minahs and mats and emo-shits. Cool people were there!

It was humid evening to start with. So Ayu, Ayu's friend and I went to get drinks and chill on the steps of FC. A familiar face was soon appearing. It was boy kening! Hahah. Padahal da jumpe semalam. LOL.

Electrico for the opening act. It was A-O-K performance. It was a bloody 30 minutes for them to "feeling feeling rock star". Ah. Yelatu. Wilson only kick start at 9.15-ish. Haiyo! But it was worth the wait. Spanish Metal was first. Wuhoo! Screamed our tiny lungs out. Clapping till it gets all red. Jumping like we're gonna get taller; just a little. :D

Due to lack of interest David is cancelled. Let the clocks be reset and the pendulums held.

Ayu & I

Getting it started

Me & Ayu's friend
Ngantok? Uhk
Minutes before..

Hodgson.Wilson.Peanut.

He's really good, LIVE

Distraction

Best picture of the night

Oh My God-Finale

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The night before was V2 chalet at Aloha Loyang. Have cliques. It's up to individual to decide whether to be in it or not. It's purely our choice. Observing is what I do best and I saw more then what I opt for. Observing and judging and making conclusions in silence. Don't ask me the obvious and questions that I dislike to talk over. If you did, my answer for you would be "It's for me to know. For you to find out." I had my fair share of fun. Thank you.

Izy.Shila M. Lopeng.B Cullen.Dorothy.Steve O.Liam

Masak-masak time!

The hot & sexy Cooks

Loveables;Tuty.Shila.Mai.Me.Izy.Ain

Pregnant? Boncit la.

Look.Look

:D

Me & Shukri

Edited:
I'm fucking straight. I don't go for girls for God's sake. My stand for my femininity and sexuality is firm. I love boys! Preach what you don't mean but, action speaks louder than words. So, please stop using the oh-so corny words of yours. It disgust me. I may speak for myself. Or maybe others.

I'm disappointed by what happened lately. It was supposed to be CD tonight. To you I seem weak. Yes! I cry. I kept quiet when being pushed. I'm emotional and reacts fast to others feeling. Are you? At the end of the day I'm the winner. I'm stronger within. I need not show others how "terror" I was with words and such. Cause for all I know this world is just a stage. What counts is within yourself. If you happen to read my blog all I can to you is "So much for the faith that you put in her." And it's my bad for giving you a cold shoulder at Giant. I was pretty pissed, then. I've slept over it. I'm A-O-K now. Timber next week.. :)

2009-04-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

Zip it! Pin it! Sew it! Shut! Shut! Shut up! All of you! You, you, you, you, and you! @%&# Gondol!

2009-04-03T00:56:00.000-07:00

I completed the quiz "Which crazy bitch are you?" with the result Sinead O'Connor.
You are one fierce bitch. You are very independent and will take no bullshit from anyone but your personality is actually sort of quiet and shy. You are a natural beauty and you are very comfortable with your femininity. You don't feel the need to overdo it or go out of your way to fuss over your looks. You don't want to distract people from what you stand for and the talents you possess. You are very idealistic and will go to any extremes to stand up for what you believe in even if it creates controversy and people don't understand. Relationships can be hard for you sometimes because men feel threatened by you but time again they come running to you and realize that you are actually very sweet and motherly....until they cross you.

It's accurate. Not 100% accurate but accurate accurate. If you know what I mean. Haha. :D

Toodles! Am off for bowling session.

I miss Grandson.

2009-04-02T01:00:00.000-07:00

I'm oh-so not in much need of a reporter here. You wanna publish what I've wrote here? Go on girl. I'll just fold my arms and glare. What's your motive teen? Just come straight to my face would you. Don't waste your time playing "pass-the-report-game". Don't go around saying "I think you should read Nat's blog. Here's her URL" "I think Nat's not happy with something. Here's her URL." "Nat this/Nat that." It makes my ears BURN. Feeling it now? It's called guilt my dear. All I can say to you is, "Choose the right words to the right person." See you on the 6TH! *evil smirk*

Yesterday's number of readers almost reaching 30. It wouldn't be surprise if you are reading. Oh well. Merci is all I can convey to you. Take it sarcastically or not, it's all up to you. It's your choices you've picked that makes you who you are.

2009-03-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

This one is my all time favourite. When I'm down and out, this will be on Repeat mode. It will knock sense into my hard head and heart.
*I can brush my troubles away, know that deep down inside, I got sun shining in my life.*

This one gives me extra goosebumps after 3:20. Woooo! Peaceful to my ears and serenity in the air. I love it! Lagi2 dengan Sting! Wuhoo! He's even more sexy here.. :D

This one he seemed to have put on some weight. But the eyebrow still the same. *It feels like Insomnia guuurrfriend..*

The message I'm sending across is that Craig David is the new sex! Anyone up for Craig David LIVE On the 8th? :D

2009-03-29T03:38:00.001-07:00

I wouldn't ever try to hurt you
I just needed someone to hold me
To fill this void while you were gone
To fill this space of emptiness

Oh ___
I'm only human
Of flesh and blood I'm made
I'm only human
Born to make mistakes

I'm only human
What am I supposed to do?
I'm supposed to make mistakes

**If you felt anything after reading this, it's purely coincidence. It's just a penny for my thought. And I would love to leave it this way. Thank you..

2009-03-29T00:47:00.000-07:00

Saturday was well spent with various types of cliques. First was the childhood friend, Kiki. The uncle at the Artistry was a total turn off. Take a good look at your reflection please! For God's sake. I got to meddle with Kiki's Pony. Awesome! The pictures are still in the process. And we found sticks! Hahah. Free! Carelessness was to blame. :D

I was really late for BBQ. Supposedly to meet up at 5PM but I was there around 8PM-ish. Haiya! First thing I did was to replenish myself with cups after cups of water. Followed by plates after plates of fried macaroni. Then the BBQ chicken wings. Sedap I tell you. And this white ball, it's not fish ball. It's something like sotong or prawn balls.

Charades was up next. Monotonous as I was judged for the game. I guessed correctly with not much anxiety and was pretty much dead. Hahha. Laughs after laughs echoing through the hot night air. Jokes were exchanged. Comments were always flowing in non stop. And this particular song kept humming it's tune. *nobody nobody nobody but you*

Enough said. Pictures the next entry.

2009-03-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

The March-ians have been doing this specific quiz on FB. So out of boredom, I kaypo-ily did it.
I took What does your birthday say about you? quiz and the result is March

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

The ones in red are oh-so trrruuee. The ones in yellow are "hmmm.. maybe." The ones in blue are "really?? could it be? i don't know"

What I've just learn in life, recently is to show appreciation to irregardless who. Be it for the good or bad, just show it. And if there's any anger in the heart, let it show. Talk it out. Sometimes, you aren't bothered by them anymore and slept over it. Like I did. Cause I know that there are better things in life to worry about than that. I'm over it. It ain't haunting me. I've won, soulfully. You've lost..

Who's the boss of Me now? It's M-E !

P.s. Wishing within my tiny heart that May I meet Grandson today.

2009-03-25T01:00:00.000-07:00

I just can't be bothered with all your(their) stoopid rules and changes and attitude and all the oh-that's-so-crappy-shit thingy. It just comes into the left ear and out the right. Little did we know that we were depending on each other to start the ball rolling. We should have "shoot" soo much more. Speaking of the word "shoot", I or rather We felt betrayed. Maybe a new reporter has emerge. Oh well! Suit yourself. I'm oh-so gonna irritate you in your presence. =D

On the lighter side. I'm glad that I bonded with right ones. We think the same, feel the same. Road trip up North, soon.

**You wanna "report" on what you've just read? All I say is "Go on girl.."

2009-03-23T02:02:00.000-07:00

I finally caught my missed-out Jim Carey film; The Number 23. Now I'm at ease. I've caught all of Carey's films, well, most of it. He is a versatile actor I must say; from The Mask to Batman Forever(the riddle man) to Ace Ventura to Fun With Dick And Jane to Dumb And Dumber to Bruce Almighty to The Number 23 to Horton to Yes Man to Ripley's Believe It Or Not!???. Enough said.

The Number 23 lets your mind swirl high into the path of your own conclusions and judgements. It sets your mind thinking throughout. With the calculations and facts and the so-called facts. It says in the movie that '23' is looked upon by others as a curse but to others a blessing. And '32' as destiny. Well, they are just numbers aren't they?.

Yarh, I know it was out 3 years ago like 29 March? 29-3(march)-[3(2009-2007)]=23 And tomorrow I'll be boarding '23' to Tekka. And today is the 23rd. Time check: 15:08. 15+8=23 Coinsidence larh, please!

I'll leave a quote from it:

Be sure your sin will find you out. - Numbers 32:23

Pretty kan? Look at those biceps. Feel like pinching! =D

p.s. I miss my Grandson..

2009-03-21T03:25:00.000-07:00

As promised. They are in. Well, not all of it. The rest are in FB. And the tops are in my Multiply, soon.

Tickets first..

First thing when we entered the Zoo is ...Take photo!

Polar Bear aren't in sight. So we took this.

Hhahaha. Aku nampak dier! Aku naaaaaaaaaaaammmmmpak!

Candid, really.

Awww.. Oh-so sweet from the side. =)

Awww.. Me and Razif. =)

Take a look at our faces. Engrossed listening to Taj topic on hotels..

Walking it out.. OTW to CQ

I swear I don't know what's on Fir/Syaz mind.

Hippo River Cruise! Free! Credits to Taj!

I sense it coming..

Take that! Pendemdam tapi fun. Hahaha.

Fir! Take that!

Syaz and Su too!

And Razif too! Ku tak pilih kasih ehk. Sumer dapat uhk..

I love you both!

Mini surprise!

Awww.. Me and Ain. Kembar!

Blissful start.. Amin.

My anger is the thunders and lightnings.
And my sadness is the rain. So, yarh! Don't ask me.
**3rd last para on Smellems. If you insist!

2009-03-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday To Me! Happy Birthday To Me! Happy Birthday To Herna Natalia! Happy Birthday To Me!

Turned Tu-ween-teen yesterday. I wasn't expecting anything Mega out of it. It was a rather small and simple and warmth to this tiny heart of mine. I thank you! You know who you are. Right back at you..

It seems like yesterday that ...
1 I wore pampers. And often pinched at the cheeks.
2 I was still in pampers I guess I am.
3 I went to Nursery school. And the food served is always yummy-licious! =)
4 I celebrated my first birthday with others, other then my family members.
5 I danced on stage with a cute guy, Shawn. Forgot for what but it was sweet. (I think it was this age)
6 I graduated from Pre-school. A graduate seh.
7 I went to school with my Power Rangers bag. And shirt tucked in with tummy-high skirt and knee-high socks with Velcro shoes. =)
8 I first started going out after school with Mom and Ayu and Bibik. =)
9 I had Cikgu Ahmad as my Malay teacher. He would pronounce 'Time' as "tie-hem". Hahah.
10 I joined Netball as my CCA together with my gfs. =)
11 I spent my last year on the old GM site, till we moved to the holding site at Katong. And my first use of the Bus Concession.
Naik bus ajer flash bus pass. Step mane nye CID jer. Kan Kiki? Naik 40 Pagi2 bute.
12 I took my PSLE. And went all nervous on the results.
13 I am a fresh breed teen-ager. And excited that my gfs are in the same school, too!
14 I spent my last year on the old GM site, till we moved to the holding site at Geylang Bahru.
15 I got into Mrs Tan's awesome art class. And carrying my "The World Is Black" art file. Coolness!
16 I took my O's. And wondering what I'll do next.
17 I went on my first date with Razif. And celebrated my first birthday together. =)
18 I watched my first M18 movie, 300. And it was free!
19 I first went on holiday with my mates. And really had a blast! =)
20 For this, it's still a mystery..

I am emotional. I cry when I talk; be it for the ups or downs. I love long bus ride home with music echoing within my drums. I love being around my loved ones. I love the warmth in the atmosphere. I love the truth in some one's else's eye. I love good food. I love my dose of chocolateeees. I love it all.

I am Hot, Expressive, Rage, Naughty, Attractive. Nonchalant, Appealing, Trendy, Adorable, Lovable, Impressive, Alluring as One wrote. Awww.. Am touched!

Thank you Razif, Mom, Ain, Fir, Syaz, Taj, Su, Ease, Man, Yazid, Kiki, Miza, Nurul, AishaAyam, Gera, Ayu, Sally, Talhah, Izyan, Tuty, Ayu, Shila, Shukri, Bana, Lopeng, Sali, Ryan, Farhan, Farhan, Dinie, Jia Yan, Faidah, Christina, Jian Hui, Taiseer, Darul, EyeSha, Dan for the wishes.

Pictures aren't up yet. Shall have a picture update, soon. =/

2009-03-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

Let's back track for while, shall we? During the wee hours of 9th March. Me, Ain, Izyan and Bana went for a surprise visit to Tuty's house. Mind the faces. We're all beat and beaten. By coffee. Duh! What else.

Me.Bana.Hayu

Yeah.Whuatever.

Coffee Presentation on the 11th was awesome. We love dressing up and role plays. High we were. Ecstatic to some. Hahah. For those who didn't turn, don't waste your time asking me how it went. Please find other sources! A mini pre-celebration for March-ians after it was like "Huh? Ah. Ok" for me. Not saying that I've no gratitude, but I just don't have the feel. I just don't. And seeing the Mango cake makes it worst. I'm sorry bout that.

So people, I've finally gunned down the day. It'll be on the 24th. I've been waiting behind the wind to find out other shits that she could cover. And joy-ly well chose not to. It's just an accessory mind you. You want Headlines. So be it!

Pardon me for not being at Zouk later on. I know it's for me but I'm dry and high for the next day.

Behind the scene:

Meet Izyan! My Personal Stylist =)

Breakfast At Tiffany's:

Illa.Ain.Mai.Me

Me.Ease.Su.Ain

Ain&Me Kembar?

Huh?Aaah. Okayy.

My Wishes Are ... well, yet Simple.

Mr Brightside please come quick. Quick!

2009-03-08T01:00:00.000-08:00

"Hapi 37th monthsary dearie! Wuhoo! Thou your soo tha tall and I'm short, I lurf you! I still do! Haha. Hope to see you soon. I miss my Razif. Muuackz!"

"Hapi 37th anni to you too! Even though I'm horizontally challenged and your tha opposite.. We're still meant for each other. I love you.."

We're a weird couple. We once shared a same but weird dream. At times we have weird dream about each other. We do weird things. And we are weird. I love the way we are now.. =)

2009-03-07T01:14:00.000-08:00

Lied, liar your skirt is on fire. Cheated, cheat your heart is broken. The game has now begun. Don't keep what you can't hold. And don't move if you can't. You just aren't good enough. Twisted words aren't in my favour and so does to the others. The overly pitched tune has now hit the ears of many. Humming to the tune of The Angry Mobs. Waiting behind the wind to gun down a perfect day. The day where the shootings start. And I warn you it's gonna get ugly and fuggy. You have a motive, so do I. Witnesses are all aligned, ready to speak up. There's a twist that you will never see it, coming. The table is gonna turn against you, soon enough. Boy am I glad that I hit you at the back. And surprisingly it got red.

No names are used. So don't have that stoopid feeling it's you. However, if the feeling you felt is guilt. Then stoopid it's you.

2009-03-05T04:12:00.000-08:00

Just got my ass back from overseas. Literally, over sea. South China sea I guess. Hahha. Got my hair coloured red by REDS. Cliche! Haha. A 24-inch flat screen to aid our eyes to pass the time. It took Saw 2 and half of Saw 1 to end our so-called-pampering-session. The uncle was super friendly and gave us extra stamps. We only need to get 3 more stamps for a free hair cut. Didn't knew that my hair had grew, way longer that what I felt. =) It was a pleasant surprise to see my soft giant on board 168, dearest Ishak.

On the other hand. It's been a year since I've blogged. Exactly a year ago. Yippe! =)

I would like to call upon a feedback session, soon. Do you hear me?! I don't care. It's gonna happen biatch.

2009-03-02T01:00:00.000-08:00

I'm a mess. I'm in a mess. A mess that I never wanted to be in. A mess that I wished didn't existed. My hope and faith is upon this mess to be washed away. As far as the wind would take it. And be lost in wherever the wind would take it. And never come back. I'm in my deepest shit and ugliest state that I've ever known. I'm having second thoughts. I don't feel like celebrating. What's there to celebrate about? Me? What do I have? Nothing I guess. I just want this mess to be washed away for eternity! It's beyond my willingness and power to do so. Oh God! Please! I'm begging you for mercy. I'm not strong as I used to be. I'm not. Nobody's listening. I'm just alone. And I go alone. Nobody understands what I'm feeling. You're lying if you say you are. I just want things to back to normal. No more taking sides. No more changing of directions. No more shoutings. No more ugly fights. No more punching bag. No more unreasonable accusations. No more comparison. No more please! No more! And do not want any more of it! Please! My heart aches whenever it comes into mind. 'Ouch!' will echo through my drums and rattle the branches of my arteries. These tears won't run dry until my eyes are closed without me realising in the wee hours of the morning. I'm emotionally disturb, I confess.

2009-02-27T01:00:00.000-08:00

Formulas are temporarily out of my system, for two plus plus months. I'm no longer buried under the black and white pages filled with scribbles and neon-lighted sentences. I'm out into the sun and arms of my misses. Plans are starting to take their dates and invites. Wuhoo! Yeah! Baby! Yeah! Alas! The much awaited weekend. My eyes are soon to be blinded by stripes and prints, at a club. I can't wait. I can't wait. Mind you,a club doesn't only refer to nightclubs club okay. We are all gonna dress like we mean it, hopefully. Drama? So be it. I don't even care what strangers think. The next day would be Let The Right One In with grandson. Yey! Really miss those firm biceps. I like! Hopes he remembers how to push open the door. =)

Your NOT the boss of me now..And you're NOT so great. I just turn my back to it at times...

2009-02-24T03:04:00.000-08:00

I used to dream about the life I'm living now and
I didn't think I'd miss those things from the past
And I'm not afraid of leaving or letting go of what I had
Cause I realize that now there's no turning back

Cause I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love
So when tear drops fall from me like a rain from above
I can brush my troubles away, know that deep down inside
I've got Sun shining in my life

...
Though I got my peace of mind and time is firmly on my side
So through the battles I can safely say
That I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love

I miss
my gang,
my cuzzy,
my 'whuat-everr',
And I miss looking into those angle eyes..

2009-02-18T01:00:00.000-08:00

Edited

Munafik! Munafik! Munafik! Hypocrisy's all see within these walls. Taking advantage of it's own kind. Tearing them down with them realising it. Pathetic! Sadistic I must say! I'm here standing all alone. With nothing to shied me nor the power to amend things. I made my stand and they showed a deaf ear to me. What am I suppose to do? Tears starts to roll as I can't bare this mess any longer. All the little things I did doesn't make any impression on you, didn't it? I know. Action speaks a thousand words. I may be young and not know much but I know the rights from wrongs. I'm helpless in this mess. Filthy big mess. I use to have thoughts of multiple stabbing for his death, literally. But again, he's not worth my time in hell. I would kill for something noble. He ain't near noble. He's just a scrap of the deepest, furthest, unbearable unpleasantly scent garbage junk hole where only God-knows-where-it'd-be. How could you be so fucking forgiving after what he had done to you? It was all done under your nose. You knew it all along but chose silence. How could you?! Who am I to you than? A member of the ghost? Don't you ever think about how I felt? I doubt so. You didn't even stand up for me like you used to. Instead, you chose to remain silent. Why?Why?Why? Ignorance is bliss uhk? Bullshit! I think I'm just a ghost. A naked ghost without a heart and literally nothing to defend me from anything, anything. I'm just hurt beneath my skin.

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After exams please! I really don't want to be side tracked. Alone is what I really need to be. Sometimes I can't study in groups, it will turn out to be a gossip session instead. Hahha. You do too I'm sure. I'm a social ghost for now. Could someone get my phone? So I can throw it in the pool. And watch it float.. I miss a whole chunk of people. Will meet up soon. Definitely filled with chilie crab, the Uncle's chapati, bowling, sheesha, flea market, JB, BBQ, plans for opening online shop, retail therapy sessions. Only after exams! To the kaypoh kiahs out there: Get a life suckers! Stop sucking into peoples life!

hernanatalia.misses.beckett

2009-02-15T22:11:00.000-08:00

Valentine's this year was with my scandal as one proclaims. He was at hospital visiting his grandmama while studying there. Get well soon grandmama! So it was with them, i meant me, miza, kiki, amin and yan went to the middle of nowhere. Literally. It was made accessible due to #83. Boy oh boy. Punggol was such a dead estate. I wonder why they chose to call it their estate. It's filled with not much necessities. But with nature..

Hectares after hectares of Lalang fields we throw ourselves in. Scratches after scratches we got on our legs. "Ouch!" was the pitch of the day. The jetty's sand was as white as sea shells. Huge stones were spotted and we took them as our resting stool with ice cream in our hands. Yummy! It was really peaceful there. Free from the bustling of the city noise and clean oxygen to breathe in. Aaaahh. I miss Redang.. An awkward bowling session at the end. =/

After much had happened within this wall. Mummy dearest and I had an "eye opener" talk in the bus. And I've made up my mind. I'm doing all this because I love Her. Seeing her smile makes me peaceful. And I want a life that is blessed by Her. Not saying that I'm rude or anything, but She said, "If you sakit kan hati makbapak you, the consequences are HUGE(really did empha-size)" After knocking much sense into my steel head, I chose silence whenever stoopid is around. Till I'm wittered and old, I still won't regrad you as mine. NEVER AND NEVER WILL..

I'mWalking Away From The Troubles In My Life. I'mWalking Away To Find A Better Place.

2009-02-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

Valentine's. Oh what a silly name cum a day. People labelled Valentine's as lovers day. People went full force on being mushy, corny, kiss-y, hug-y, extra sex-y on Valentine's? Why not other days? How about Anni's? Do you only appreciate your gf/bf on Valentine's? Surely not right.

You celebrate it everyday with appreciation and gratitude. It would be more significant if you did all this on your Anni's right. It has a more sense of meaning and much sweeter memories. I have Zeev Love Nat Day! Everyday! =)

I think Valentine's all over-rated. Think of the doubling price of things and so-called-promotions-that-are-cheaper. Run it through..

p.s soon, please..

2009-02-11T23:36:00.000-08:00

While in the midst of revision I went onto the ellenpage and, Tadah! Taknak kalah sak Ellen pat starting.. Ellen's literally screaming in the chorus. And the ending is like a "hahhahha!" kinda thing you know. Watch it again with your eyes closed. Just hearing her sing makes me/you laugh, seriously! A MUST WATCH !!

As for this. It's just so funny. Both of them. It's oh-so random uhk.. John Mayer is a good sport. He's a oh-so bad rapper!

I heard there's a fight last night. Baek uhk V2. Wohhoo! FYI Emily suck! I wanna heard the scope. *evil grin*

2009-02-09T04:26:00.000-08:00

Ola! Hola! Guess what?? I saved my butt a space at KC LIVE IN SG! Wohoo! The 75bucks tix was already sold out so we, meaning me and my cousin and her friend bought the 88bucks tix. 8-8 lucky number uhk. I like.. Only me and grandson know why. =) Ricky and gang will head our way once they're done with Downunder's V Festival. Wohoo! Oh! It'd be soon before long when the day arrives. Rock on!

*sings*
Ruby, Ruby, Ruby, Ruby
And do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya
Know what ya doing, doing to me?
Ruby, Ruby, Ruby, Ruby

YTAII or izzit YTAH ? LOL

Fuck you naive people who couldn't care less!

2009-02-08T05:46:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a much awaited date with grandson. My guess was right. And so we caught Underworld: Rise of the Lycans at we-know-where Haha. Out of all places we will end up there. God knows why. The fighting scenes were a little messy to me. The camera kept shifting and had a minor headache watching it. Hahah. Overall, it was a little short compared to the previous two. No Kate Beckinsale. Haiya.

A funny little silly thing happened after that. Grandson confidently pushes the bar down the centre and then the door. Tired once, failed. Twice, also failed. Thrice, also fail. Haiya. I was clueless. So we stood by the door and a girl came and pushes the bar down the left side and then the door. Tadah! Open sesame! Wah lau ehk. A girl can do it. Why not grandson whose 1.8metre tall and a body shaped for a Rugby player?

Read mine. The next door was shut. I decided to open instead since grandson was still shy. And I did the opposite to a 'Pull' door. Hahah. Ass la the door. There's just one final door to the main corridor and it was ajar. Judging no, rather seeing it was a 'Pull' door. I did the right thing to it. Seriously uhk, GV should invest on stickers indicating 'Pull/Push'.

I told grandson and the rest of the patrons that no one's perfect so just laugh it off!! I didn't care what others think. Think that we were silly or whatever shit they want. We just laughed it off. It was kind of 'the joke of the day'. You should really see the way grandson pushes the door. It was with all his might. Bersungguh-sungguh that's what Melays would say.

Discussed about all the three Underworld over at Fisherman Wharf's. It was really shiok uhk. We sat there about an hour. Talked about all sorts of things. BGR, dreams, CNY, clubs, lesbians, gays, ang mohs, fishes, chickens. We're oh-so random. Plus it was a windy night. And someone didn't really like it.

On the way home, we saw a familiar someone. It was Gimley. This ang moh really look like him uhk only without the axe. Hahaha. He's more edgy-rockish Gimley. He danced his way throughout his journey till Kembangan. Hilarious we say. And grandson noticed that a Pakcik tegur an Indian man about his unzipped jeans. Oh my God! Malu nye. Can you imagine he's sitting down and Pakcik saw it while standing in front of him and even laughed. Hahha.

So it was said that 7th Febuary was a silly day. And that someone confidently put his hand under the soap tap and expecting water to release. Hahah. Imagine this: Wash hands then style hair. Still styling with one hand and the other under the soap tap. Hahah. Funny!

I got a box filled with chocolates and a bun-liked stress ball. Aww.. Grandson knows that I'm stressed out. And he did wanted to get me the hair diffuser but ... Awww.. It's ok la. I'm cool. The present is just what I needed. Thank you!

Happy 3rd Anniversary to us!

Does this sound Shakespeare-ish? Haha. You decide.

I thought I knew myself, somehow you know me more
I've never known this, never before.
You're the first to smile whenever we are two
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know you.

You make me feel a way I've never felt with no one else
And I can't help myself, I'm telling you that
No one or nothing can change
Forever yours, here I stand
Here I stand, baby..

It's hard to find and lucky to have you as MY BOYFRIEND.
You're my Love. And I'm proud of calling you mine.. =)

Love you now Love you still
Always have and always will.

2009-02-05T01:00:00.000-08:00

I'm having thoughts in chopping of my hair. Makes me feel more 'light' and even more quirky. But than again if I cut I'll tend to miss my long hair. That's my thing you see. If I have it long, I wanna chop it off. If have it short, I'll miss my long. Itchy me.. Wish I was rich. If I want a long hair, I'll have extensions. And if I don't need them, I'll remove it. I wish..

2009-02-02T06:21:00.000-08:00

2009-02-01T01:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was flea fly flo fun day. Hopping from on flea to another. I was at Bedok Mrt doing my "washing of eyes". There's quite a few pinch of stylish and sensible dresser for that particular area. But it was filled completely filled with the insensible styles of the Nyonyas and Ahpeks. Hothotheat was the weather for the day. Oh-so typical weather of SG. Couldn't blame it's Geographical location.

HC was an instant "Sauna" once entered. Pretty clothes with heavy price tags. Ehk! Hello! Flea market! Furh-lee market. Not Spurh-lurge market. So pricey no wonder no buyers. To my understanding it'd be price $20 and below for Fleas. You guys are just flees. Flees itching for kachings. Hands on some really good buys, a zebra print pants and the "wayfer something" shades and my kembar Siam [inside joke] Ain got an Orange dress.

The heat was unbearable so we decided to leave for Fisherman Wharf's. Cravings for it was soon satisfied! =) God I miss that place! Had a really good story sharing time. Complicated as we claimed.

V-Lot we head next. Knew that there IS a shuttle bus between PP ad V-Lot. But then this Pakcik claims that there's no such service. Get to know that there IS such service uhk. @%&*$%^@#! "Every where we go.." "People wanna know.." "Who we are.." "Where we come from.." "So we tell them.." "Eerr.. Tell them what??" I burst into laughter. Rabak seh this girl. She forgot the cheer. Haish. Walking while talking over many issues. Many plans for things and such which some includes kachings.

And to my surprise I am broke now. Spent more then I should. Sharks! What a shock to end my day. I really have to be a penny saver. I shall spend what I need. Lesson learnt. After much calculation, I am able to survive. Buying a watch and a present and save my butt at the KC LIVE. Yarh. So this 3 is my utmost priority. Don't ask me out.. My wishes shall be my own command.

Pictures are not up yet. So maybe the next time I'm free, I'll upload it in here lah ehk. No promises.

Looking forward to the 8th. Please fly by..

2009-01-30T02:41:00.000-08:00

Both Beckett are smart. One's buried under Accountancy. Another's a Rubik freak. I love quirky yet stylish people. Kisses!

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I would deeply appreciate a lifetime supply of sleeping pills which has a very high dose of drugs please. It's used for the dreadful times cum unplanned nights I spent at home with an excess in it. I am just sick and tired of what some people are portraying these days. Makes me wana puke and stain your clean clothes. From me to these sick people: ".. know you're never gonna change. So, just shuddup and move along!" Ouh what a peaceful note to my drums whenever you're far. Snap! Do sent it to my door step pretty please/ beefy hunk please at

BLOC 666 SICKEN SCORNER AVENUE HIGHEST-TH FLOOR SG[000666].

Fly by Tonight ...

2009-01-27T05:40:00.000-08:00

What did you learn today?I learned nothin
What did you do today?I did nothin
What did you learn at school?I didn’t go
Why didn’t you go to school?I don’t know

It’s cool to know nothin.It's cool to know nothin

Television’s on the blink.There’s nothin on it
I really want to really big coat.With words on it
What do you want for tea?I want crisps
Why didn’t you join the team?I just didn’t

It’s cool to know nothin.It's cool to know nothin

Here comes the referee.The light’s flashin
Best bit of the day.Now that’s livin
Why don’t you run away?Are you kiddin?
What is the golden rule?You say nothin

It’s cool to know nothin.It's cool to know nothin.

2009-01-24T01:00:00.000-08:00

With this weekend. And the weekend after. And the after after. Focusing on what needs my attention most. Flipping white pages. Chunks of black lines. Monochrome diagrams. Never ending formulas. My pretty head is very much buried under the BOOKS! Enough said. I'm tempted to get the 75bucks tix for KC: LIVE in SG. ;p I'm gonna ask grandson once I get my phone back.

Missing my angeleye. Please fly by tonight even for a while. Nevertheless, you're always here. Right here ...

2009-01-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

I just don't want to elaborate about last Sunday outing. It was suppose to be a store thingy but then ...tingkepalatingtangtung. Let the pictures speak their thousand words.

Look swollen?

Shila.Me.Ain

Gimme the ball!!! Eeeshk.

Oops! Missed it.

Take that! Hahah

'Panas la seh..'

My leg look delicious. Say yes.

Colour my head.

2009-01-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

KAU PERANGAI CHEE BAI SIAL. KAU SAPER NAK CACI ORANG SIAL UHK? MEMPERKECILKAN ORANG UHK? PUKI. KAU BANYAK PEH BESAR PE BABI? PAS TU UHK KAU NAK STEP BUAL2 NAN DIE. PUKI UHK SIAL. PERANGAI ANJING. DAH LUDAH, JILAT. SERUPE! ADE SKANDAL BUAT ADE SKANDAL UHK. STEP MANE NYE MALAIKAT JE. KAU BODOH PER SIAL TAK TAHU NAK MENGAKU. DAH TERANG LAGI NAK SEMBUNYI. KU RASE KAU BUAT MAK AKU DENGAN DUKON KAU YANG SIAL TU. KAU TIPU DIER CHEE BAI. BERKALI-KALI KU DENGAR. KAU MEMANG BAWAK SIAL UHK. DALA BESAR TUE KREPOT DALA TAK LAWA DALA GELAP MACAM MAMA PUNDEK TAK TAU NAK JAGE DIRI PE UHK? APE KAU TAK NAK MENGAKU YANG KAU MASEH HIDUP NAN MAK KAU? KAU TAK ADA RUMAH? TSK.TSK. MANE DUIT KAU SUMER? BUANG PAT GEYLANG KAN SIAL? KAU TAKLE MOVE ON UHK? EHK SIAL. KITER BOLE HIDUP TANPA KAU LA CHEE BAI. MASEH BERNAFAS, TAK MEREPOT PAT OTAK MACAM KAU. KAU SAKIT UHK SIAL. AKU HARAP MAK AKU CAMPAK KAU KELUAR. KAU DA TAK ADE SEN PASTU CARIK KITER KAN? KAU TAU YANG AKU DA BEASR LE KEJE PEH NAK RASE GAJI AKU KAN? NAK HIDUP SENANG KAN? HIDUP ATAS HASIL ORANG LAIN KAN? PUIH! AKU TAK AKAN KASI KAU SE SEN PON SIAL. AKU TAKDA @%#$^# MACAM KAU UHK SIAL. AKU TAK AKAN MEGAKU. AKU JIJIK TENGOK KAU. KALAU AKU LELAKI AKU DAH KASI KAU PENUMBUK, BAKAR SEMUA BAJU2 HARTA BENDA KAU SEMUA. PUKI. SEKARANG BARU NAK BALIK. PUIH! BESAR PEH PENIPU. AKU TAK AKAN JENGOK PON BILER KAU NAK MAMPOS. NAK MAMPOS, MAMPOS UHK APE AKU KEYSAH.

2009-01-17T01:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a shopping trip with my dearest grandson. He's 19. I was slightly late for the meet up. To Bugis we headed. SL first. To get my skin protector and silicon keyboard casing. Now my lappy looks pretty! It's stil presitine. Off to AF. This grandson of mine asked a silly question 'What are you getting here?' Answered briefly 'Pen.' 'What?? Just a pen??' 'Yarh. Fabric pen. You thought wriring pen uhk. Kedai apek pon ade jual seh.' 'Chey. Tu pasal uhk. I thought it was a regular pen.' He's silly at times.

Early dinner was at Tong Seng. While the sun is setting. It was so 'Orange' but nice in a way. He had his Mushroom noodles and I had my Sliced Fish soup. But what I meant was fried. And the pakcik didn't quiet understood. So I had the sliced version. Shocked la seh. Never eaten and didn't quite like the idea. =/ And grandson did notice; it was written all over my face. And he said 'It's a healthier choice.' Smiled back politely.I just ate it anyway, it's paid for. Speaking of paying. Grandson literally had to dig for his money out of his so-called wallet. Funny uhk. He even carry a coin purse.

Next on the plan was wallet hunting. Grandson's Animal wallet spoiled due to unforeseen nature. And placed it nicely back in the pack. Aww.. Sweet nye. =) Surveyed at TS, WS and this surfer like shop. And we were like debating which wallet he should get. He voted for this black Rusty wallet with a 'zipped' coin section;$59.90. But I voted for the brown Rusty wallet which is bigger in size and has a 'buttoned' coin section and comes with a key chain aka bottle opener[which redundant in the end];$69.90. After much persuasion, he listen to me. I won! =)

Chippy we head. Missed my Fried Mars Bars. Bought drinks at Marketplace. Went 'shelve-shopping' in there. How we found that the chocs area was indeed heaven. Aaaah. I randomly said 'Beli Nougat uhk.' And he quickly went from shelve to shelve and found it. I think he wanted to get it and I replied 'Nah. It's okay.' 'Lame tak nampak Kinder Surprise.' And surprisingly he did the same. No more of the egg version. Went back to the drinks section and while pointing at a barrel of Carslberg 'Take this uhk. My treat.' 'Hahah. Very funny. Take if you want.' Came across this A&W drinks. Diet Cream Soda and Diet Root Beer. I was eying the Cream Soda so did grandson. 'So we get both soda or one each?' 'Anything. Tak cerewet.' 'Anything tkda.' 'Whatever ehk.' 'Whatever pon tak jual.' 'Perangai!' After 20minutes in there, we bought 2drinks. Hahah.

Got a call from Mom and she wanted me to get socks for Grandpa. It was so random uhk. So we went socks hunting at 9pm. 'Where to get seh? At RC some more. Ex seh.' 'Try Penin area?' While waiting at the traffic light. 'Want your drink now?' 'Yes please.' 'Which one?' 'Anything.' 'Anything takda la.' 'Perangai!' I think he took out the Root Beer on purpose or it was a coincidence as he showed a cheeky smile while passing it. Little did I know that I had a slenge grandson. He shook the can before opening! 'Pandai.' 'Aaggrh!' 'Didn't know that my boyfriend is selenge.' 'Diam ar.' While crossing a road, someone called my name out loud. I literally paused in the middle of the road and turned. It was kiki. Waited for her on the other side. Boy, she took ages to cross. Buying socks wasn't that easy. Had to 'compare and contrast'. It took us about 10minutes.

The reason why I called him my grandson because he called me grandma. I visited the Ladies thrice in 3 hours and I rested for a while when walking[he claims this is part of the reason]. And I 'defended' myself saying that grandma doesn't burp like a boy while drinking Root Beer and walk long distances. Oya. At one point of time he laughed oh-so loudly. 'Recycle the can uhk.' 'Giler! Still a lot seh. And I drink like a girl.' *laughs* 'Very funny. Drink like a girl?? And burps loudly many times?' Continues to laugh. Funny meh? Up to you to judge.

293 queue was as long as 969. When we got our bums on the seats. Our eyes starts to be in 'sleepy' mode. By the third bus stop, we were sleeping together. His shoulder as my pillow and his bicep's something to cling onto. I felt an extra set of curls on my hair. =p

2009-01-15T02:14:00.000-08:00

Life and people. What's the connection? Life's a mystery. And people are filled with mystery. Both are pre planned by HIM. And it can get really unpredictable at times. Shocking as it may seem. Some are just hard to swallow. Take it in with a pinch of salt I say. I should be studying for my Maths quiz but I ended up reading this cousin of mine's LJ. My mouth hung open when I read them. Swirled 180 degrees in her life. Wow! Just as what I predicted. It's just the matter of time. I thought I was the 'black sheep' of the family; entire family as in aunt uncle cousin. Yarh. The sad truth. Putting words into my mouth. Talk what you want lah. I AIN'T HEARING. Blabblabblab. *shows whatever sign* She's even worst then me uhk. Coming home in the wee hours. Hanging out at boifey's place. Snapping the al-touchy pics wit boifey. And I really mean touchy uhk. She even tried to sneak out. And the even more shocking part; her younger sister which I was once close to now got the nape of her neck pierce! OMG. So, I'm not the worst but her. I hope she knows what she's doing.

The 'break up' season is here. Lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end? It was jaw dropping and heart breaking to hear their story. Knowing how long they have been together but then again it's just a number, what they have went through and their happier times. I miss them! I believe that there is no such thing as a perfect relationship. No downs and always the ups??? Hello? Fairy tale uhk? Having faith in the other half is what you ought to stick to. You said you had faith. [Not literally but I know] Then?? Shouldn't you wait and trust that one fine day he/she might change. Changes don't happen within days nor weeks. Give it some grace. Shouldn't you accept his/her flaws too?. No one's perfect. If it's his/her flaws are irritants to you, why then go in a relationship with him/her? I having the feeling that you guys will work things out and WILL BE okay. =)

Missingmyangeleye.

2009-01-10T01:00:00.000-08:00

Seven pounds wasn't that '2 stars' as one of the radio station claims. I would like to double it to 4. It was really good. Very heart warming and made tears to my eyes. It's a story that might be happening in real life. More like an inspiration kind of thing. I urge you to catch it with your loved ones or your best movie buddy! So that you can lean on their shoulder during the 'emotional' scene. =) It's 123 minutes. Worth your ticket. Smith look aged. Well his already old. Beckett notices that in 'I am Legend', 'Pursuit of happyness' and 'Seven pounds' Smith has a scene in the bathroom, always. Either he slept there or lie in there. Smith loves the bathroom after all. Hahha.

It was a short meet up. 5 hours-ish. But it was a fun, really. We talked alot over many issues; school, mud and sprays, guys being vain, long curly hair[I like], music, concerts, VS models[Victoria's still a secret], Aguilera, Bradgelina, random stuffs like me craving for Mrs Field, including scrambler of course! =p. And the list goes on ... Someone doesn't like windy day. How can? Windy days are good. But someone claims that it messed up the hairstyle that has been finalised with a hairspray.

The ending was a total random. Didn't expect many to appear at the lift lobby. It was one after another. While waiting for them to disappear, we read the noticeboard. Hhaha. When we thought that the 'coast was clear' I pressed for the lift. Then came along this family. They seemed familiar. Neighbor of the same block I guess. So we decided to sit by the side and wait for them to get up. Beckett was like 'Lepas satu, satu.' 'Tula. Haiya!'. Little did we know that they didn't took the lift. And out of the blue I pointed my two #@%*%# fingers. Guess who saw it? Their little girl!! OMG! What a bad example. Bad!

Exams are in within 30days. OMG! That's fast. Just had term testes like 3weeks ago and now, exams round the corner? Hectic I tell you. Now I'm buried under the books. Projects shits and assignments after the other, quizzes coming. Am staying indoor today to finish up my school work. Boring or what?! Will squeeze in some time for Underworld:Evolution later. Beckett too might do the same. We're high. Underworld 3 is out on February 5th. =) But I'm craving for Fisherman's Wharf. =/

2009-01-08T01:00:00.000-08:00

Just got the chance to read Kiki's recent post late last night. And I was really touched, seriously. How I once told her that I felt guilty for not spending enough time with her; meet ups and such. I'll try. Life's been really hectic since I left GM. It's normal, I guess. I'll make it up some how. We still meet up for Birthday celebrations and Raye. You know the significant dates for us all.

I love you too! And my other gfs; Miza,Nurul,Haida,Aishah. xoxo

Engineering students are pretty 'dead' people. I refer them as Zombies. They don't dress up. They don't make 'statements'. They don't have 'style'. They will always be seen with Polos, Jeans, slippers and shoes if there's lab. Pretty boring right? Hardly see dresses and skirts. I once wore 'Boho' to school and they were "Wear so nice for what?' 'Where you going? Date uhk?'. I was like 'I'm feeling 'Boho' today.' Replied with stoopid questions 'What's 'Boho'?'. No comments. You know what I'm gonna do? I'm just gonna wear whatever I like to school despite the stoopid stares and comments from fellow Eng. students are giving. Unique baby! =) I love to dress up and 'have the feel'. You know what I mean, right? Zombies.

It's been many months and days and hours and minutes since we are together.And it all adds up to 35 months. =p Many places that we ventured. And do get lost at times. Haha. Many things we did together; catching movies, eating meals after meals, shoe shopping, having ice cream in the city, talking under the stars, long bus ride home, detouring, fights, the bad times, the down side of life, sheesha-ing, solving riddles, asking silly questions, sharing random topics, music reviews, 'Fred Perry' shopping, food hunting, breaking fast. Too many things to type. And the list goes on ... Pretty much everything! We even slept together! Hahah. Not making out you sick dog!

I love my life the way it is now. Since Beckett came, I was changed. He showed me what love is. And how being loved feels like. He teaches me to just love and forget the past. Introducing me to many other alternative music. Musics that aren't 'main stream'. He was there to listen to my screams. And soften it with his open heart. He was there to hear my cries. And he open his arms wide. He was there when I'm at crossroads. And he was giving alternative solutions. The best thing about us is that We are so weird yet so cool. What are the odds of that? Hahah. =p

Happy 35th monthsary to us !!

p.s. meeting my angel eye tomorrow. =P

2009-01-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

I am saying 'Whuat ever!' to this. It feels good to be alone at times. Just doing your own personal reflections. Judging in silence. And weighing the actions and answers. I can see my reflections. I wish that God will grant people with understanding soul. Not having stoopid thoughts and not having faith in someone. Some just don't get it. Do you? And some people are ought to be zapped off from this world. Your presence doesn't make a difference. At all. I am putting it into silent mode.

2009-01-02T06:23:00.000-08:00

Got myself a new neighbor. They're a pretty 'happening' bunch. They have grandma and a little girl or boy with them. I'm too sure. Young couple I guess. They just brought in a new Amplifier. So damn noisy uhk. Yesterday they had Lady Gaga's 'Just dance' on. Boy it was superbly irritating. They could open their very own illegal club. Weekends are always 'full-house'. So many people. Walking past my house and having their heads turning in. Living on the fifteen floor used to be tranquil and windy. It still windy as ever. Enough said.

2009 is very welcoming, in every ways. I'm still in disbelief that 2008 just passed. :/ Can the clock stop ticking? I wish! Term testes results are good. I like healthy competition! =) My wishes are coming true, slowly taking it's grants. On NYE. Me and Beckett had ulcer, not just any ulcer. We had the it on the same spot. Yeah you read it right, the same spot! Bottom right. So weird yet so cool. What are the odds of that? Hahah. To make it short: Coolness in weirdness. So random uhk. Loads of other stuff to be identical in. Instead, we've got ulcer together! *brows up*

Gue rindu sama anak Mahat!

2008-12-31T05:30:00.000-08:00

On this very last day of 2008, I have learnt a lot from it. Many things that I didn't know/ought to know. Faced many mishaps/misfits. Some I took it in with open arms while others with a cold black heart.Met new people. Whom I have hate. Whom I had became friends with. Have learnt to understand. I am stronger now. I know what I want and need in life. No more clinging onto something for support. Loving family more. Like I said before they are the ones who gonna pick you up when you're down and out.

The first few months were such a pain for me to swallow. It's the worst and ugliest and truthful and dramatic scene. [Including THE fight I had with Beckett, I'm over it now.] I kept running away. Running as far as my leg could carry me to. I even fled the country, seriously. Seek the shelter of another Island. Was still in denial mode, then. Seek refuge and comfort in the arms of Grandpa, gfs, cousins, friends, and Razif too! They were there when I needed them. Thank you!

Many fond memories are kept sealed in my heart. My Birthday was the most memorable one, indeed! It's still running in my mind. You guys are the friends that I could count on. And friends who are ought to be called 'Friends'. The time was priceless. Kept laughing while typing this. How Yazid and Su hid behind the coconut trees. Keeping the candles alive form the wind. And how I used my HP to shine the menu at CDM. And reminiscing about primary school days under the starry night. And played poker at the crack of dawn. I love you guys! This applies to the ECP and Cafe Del Moar people uhk. Not forgetting anak Mahat too! Celebrated the next day. Aww.. So sweet. =)

Holidays. I got my feet on KL, Genting, Redang Island. KL and Genting was with buddies. Had a blast! Minus the tiff that happened. And the 'mini buah beranang' competition by the road side. Something only Me and Taj know. The night that we played UNO endlessly and trying to duped Is. Kenatal sak dektu. And how the 10 of us cramped into a room. Yacked endlessly at the Cassanova lobby for like 3 hours. Redang was heaven! Snorkeling! Canoe too. 'Ain! Kiri! Kiri!'. The suntan session was great. Had our girly talks. Had our mountain high Ice Kacang; Malaysian version okay! In total I have left Beckett alone for 10days!

Razif. Yes I have been referring him as Beckett/anak Mahat. It's the same person. Well, we have been through a lot; seriously a lot. We're our own cheerleader when one is down. We shared more personal stuff this time. Secrets! Hah! =) Advice are pretty much given. He literally have a strong and firm shoulder. I like! *brows up* I have a confession. I love his bicep. Whenever we are out, I will or I should say 'must' touch/cling/pinch it. Haha. Boy I am weird. It's nice uhk. Slightly fairer than the skin tone, firm and huge. Who don't like seh? I think he knows. If he doesn't I think he will. His birthday bash is still fresh in mind. Got bashed by his buddies. Stuffed by bits of cakes. Boy it was fun to look at.

My wish for 2009 will be spending more time with:

#1 Mummy dearest
#2 Gfs as in Nur'Aqilah Azman and Co.
#3 Cousins
#4 Beckett
#5 Buddies as in Suliani Su'aidi and Co.
#6 Starbucks partners

I'm living my life the way I love it. Savour and cherish everyday and everyone around me. Although it's hard to please everyone. I do appreciate your presence and existence, in a way. Don't forget that I will always observe in silence.

The rest are unwritten doesn't mean they aren't equally important as these above. They are still memorable in a way. Cherished it.

2009 will be a mystery. I shall usher it in with arms wide open. Cheers baby jos!

2008-12-28T01:00:00.000-08:00

It was a last minute plan to catch Angus, thongs and the perfect snogging. It's superb! And fresh! Yah. We know it's 3weeks old. SG's so tiny! Been there done that! So it was PS again for the second time. Hahah.

As usual, I'm late. Met Razif then to the bank then, the AXS then, to Guardian to get water[it was so effing hot uhk at the AXS station like sauna] then lastly, top up my ez link. Keycoh peh. And it took us about 20minutes. Alas! After much thoughts and walking up and down Orchard Rd, under the humid weather, I got my hands on Pony. =) And Razif got his new backpack. Win-win situation. Yey! With those two bags in hand, Razif kept bumping them into me for countless of times. Bumper!

After the movie, turn back to Cine to get Famous Amos. Jam pack with shoppers. Bumped into Razif again! It's so funny. Picture this: A skinny girl on the right wants to make a left but her boyfriend on the left wants to make a right while walking down afew stairs. And it happened at the same time. Result: Bumper! The small path towards Cine was equal packed on both sides. Luckily I'm with Razif so he can lead the way and make enough space to walk. =) Saw a few familiar faces and I chose to ignore them. It doesn't make a difference if I acknowledge them or not.

Razif and I saw stars. Cluster[is that what you used to describe a group of star?] of stars They looks so sparkly and tiny. Beautiful I tell you. Unlike last week, we only saw a star. Pathetic. Passed him the Topshop jeans which was found unattended at Suntec. Hope he fits. Sure can one lah. Free! Who don't want?

Hair starts to grow after a few days of shaving. It's not noticeable but when you touch it, ahhh! It's kinda sharp and has this tingling feeling to it. I kinda like it though. Sexy! ;p Hahha. I'm weird.

NYE's with Razif. Guess it would be Sheesha session with friends and company.

2008-12-27T01:00:00.000-08:00

Heard from Beckett that The Killers is gonna be in Town. The actual date is yet to be confirmed. After watching this recent 'live' performance at the EMA, I was awed. The visuals are spectacular!! Muse's green laser light lost to them. Judge from the view of the audience only uhk. Guess I'll put aside some kachings for them. =)

2008-12-25T01:00:00.000-08:00

So Tuesday I met up my girlies. It's been eons since I last met Zaza. The most fun part of the meet up was the 'Riddles'. The puzzled look on their faces were priceless. I kinda like the look of people thinking. Trying hard to answer my riddles. Both the 'Malaysia' and 'MRT'. Caught 'YES man'. It was a little above average. Can't deny that it was hilarious. The best scene was the 'Motorbike' scene. Cool shit uhk. The bike was superb. Can I have my turn? Hahah. Overall, it was a blast! Pictures, do the talking.. Ciaoz baby jos! xoxo

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hmm. full..

fun.fun.fun.

coolness

"party animals"

"party animals" part2

boho inspired

2008-12-23T08:19:00.000-08:00

If you got anything to say/bitch/comment. Do it straight to my face. Don't be a pussy. "You should know it better." "You know who you are." "To who ever it may concern." Please lah ehk. Don't put the blame in "kalau kau terase, kau peh pasal". In this way, you will never in the blue fuck get your point across. It's modern time. Dare to type, dare to put names. Fuck privacy since you already blap about it in the Internet. Hello! To avoid misunderstanding for fuck sake. What happen to the functions of the brain??

2008-12-22T18:47:00.000-08:00

Had Christmas exchange party yesterday night. Did had fun though after much *toot-tala-ting-tang-tung*. Yah. So it was okae lah. Had fun during the charades and the Lyrics games. Ishak was indeed our 'old-school' saviour. Thanks ehk! We're the overall winners! Yeah! ~la lallala. Boy am I glad that a guy got my Spice Girls greatest hits CD; Zaki. *wicked smile*

No comments.

The Winners!

Kiter.Kiter.

Best Food barista. tepok sendirik nampak. lol

Got a pair of towels in return.

2008-12-21T01:00:00.000-08:00

Caught Twilight with Beckett. And he was like 'I'm going to sleep through the movie.'. Fred not, he didn't. In fact he said it was ok/good but it's a little long winded. Alice was effing cute. The baseball scene was the coolest of them all. When I told Beckett about 'New Moon' and 'Eclipse' he went 'Huh? Aaaahh!'. And he thinks that James should be the lead instead of Edward cause of his macho frame. Sexy! We couldn't stop laughing at Jasper's facial expression; he looks like he's in pain.

There was an advert on holiday destinations. And the bimbo next to me claims that Macau's in Malaysia!! We were were laughing at her. I mean 'who doesn't know Macau??'. Exceptions to her ONLY. Stoopid sak. Passing bimbo tic remarks during Twilight. Aahh. God. We find her funny.

I had my Carl's Jr fries taken out and he had his Rum & Raisins Banana Crepe. Coolness! The way the guy mix the ingredients with rum and let it set fire, We're astonished. Should see our faces. Jakon. Hahah. We sat outside Giraffe. Had our mini talks about almost any thing from Christmas to Zoukout to Siliso Beach Party to NYE to Scrambler!! to me turning 2-0 to him meeting my mom randomly in the bank to his sister to stomach aches to shitting. Yah. That's a bout it.

It's starting to fall in place nicely with grace. Now I know why we seldom take pictures. He wasn't in for much of a favour. I know. You guys must be going 'Huh? Why not?'. I think it takes time to built it up. It really does. 'Have you seen a --- boy on a skateboard before?' talk is still fresh. I understand why. Confidence boosting up level by level.

I love Beckett/my cousins/my gfs/my buddies for who You really are. Regardless of the flaws that one may have claimed. No body's perfect.

2008-12-17T05:28:00.000-08:00

Holidays are a dread. Hate them in a way. I'm off. What a bore. Felt like Garfield today. Resting my bottoms here and there. Glued my eyes upon the telly. Stuffed my ears with all kinds of notes. Refilled my stomach hourly. God! I'm totally bored lah. Caught Wild Child online. Great show you know! Gf sms-ed me this afternoon. She already has plans for NYE and Sunday. Boy you are a fast planner! I might opt for the soccer tingy. However, I need to get my blog shop started. No promises. Will update soon, aite? Working is sooo much fun without dumb and dumber and dumber-er. Most are at ease to breathe. Hooray!!

Am missing Beckett. Can't wait to see my Angel eyes.. xoxo

2008-12-14T08:11:00.000-08:00

I'm all refreshed after a night without sleep. I did have fun yesterday. Gelek! Gelek! Gelek! *akhhem* hahah. Something only we know.. Met up Ryan and Lopeng at 5pm to have dinner at Seah Im. Chilled and talking nonsense while waiting for the rest to arrive. Departed to Sentosa around 7pm with both Izyan and Fara. I was all hyped up and excited. "Wooho! Uhmm-mmmm-umm!" was all I said till we reached Siloso. Hahah.

Luckily we got our hands on the lanyards and light sticks before the other loads of chunks did. Stroll along the beach and the crowd wasn't in yet. So, we decided to eat again. At Kofu(ehk? issit?) While on our way there, the crowd started to flow in gradually. I gave the "Malaysia" riddle to the rest and they went

'asal tak bole? aku nak jugak bawak!!' 'ehk. gi malaysia kene bawak passport pe!!' 'kau bawal mop, aku bawak sabon uhk. bole?'
And the "Mrt" riddle too. 'mrt bole skip station ehk?' 'nie mesti ada maths nye'

Saw many familiar faces including Kiki. I think Zoukout is tiring. It way too long long. Dancing all night long. And the drinks there are ridiculously expensive. $4 for a 150ml Ice Mountain. $5 for 3 pieces of Old Chang Kee. I still prefer Home Club. It's the best. Chill. Dance whenever you want to. And not ashamed to exhibit your stupid cum hilarious attics. Hahah.

Headed to Vivo at 7am. Boy are we shagged. Loose knee chaps. Aching calves. Aching back. Aching on the sole of the feet. Growling stomach. Me and Fara had Nasi Lemak for breakfast! Yummy!

Headed South !

ouh-weee. ~la lallala

fun.fun.fun.fun.

r&b wasn't that bad afterall..

girlies..

shagged!

smoky.smoky.

aku lapar!

2008-12-11T07:01:00.000-08:00

Boy, am I glad that the papers are finally over. No more torturing my brain cells. I am really mental exhausted. Drained. Phew! Relieved! Yes I am. Hate the last question of every paper. Why make it 'unique'? You don't want your students to get an 'A' or what seh. Enough said.. Sheesh!

I just wanna make my 2week holiday into good use. For instance, this Saturday! Getting the ticket tomorrow night. Guess how much I paid for it? TWENTY-ONE BUCKS!! Yupp you heard me right. =p All thanks to Fee. Shake. Shake uhk. Shake it! ~la lallala

Countdown is up somewhere in my agenda. It's the only day that I'll ride the first train home. I must admit it's hard to please people. Dearest, Besties, Buddies have been asking me to usher in 2009 together. How?How?How?

I just wanna spent more time with Beckett since we both are having our hols. I wish we could make it work for this Saturday's meet up even though it's for a while..

2008-12-08T01:00:00.000-08:00

Happy 34Th month anniversary to Us !!

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

2008-12-07T00:57:00.000-08:00

I was out to NLB for the Twilight book discussion. Met up with Ain at Bugis around 1630h-ish. I have nothing much to say about the event. It was interesting though but.. There's but lah. I did enjoy the company and such. And I love the prize that I won that night. I won the 'Best Dressed' Award but 3rd. Pfft! All thanks to this poser-like-twilight-fanatic-plus-punk rock emo shit girl.. Didn't really fancy her. She won cause of her "fame" she had there. I admit that I'm not in the favour of the Limelight and yes, I'm anti social, in a way.. I don't mingle-bingle with strangers. Pfft! Well, what the heck.

Meet Razif after the event. He was puffing his way. I didn't mind la. Just know your limit. Saw a familiar thing; fags box. Which I gave him a year or so ago.. Aww.. Went "shopping". Didn't get what I wanted. The jeans were either lose under my butt cheek, tight at my thighs, the pocket wasn't appealing.

Razif met my Mom along Orchard. Hah! Surprise! A little awkward I must say. He bumped into his friends and I bumped into mine, too. And guess what? Razif indirectly know Keval.Yah. Keval Singh the one from GM and has a brother named Jespal. Oh what a small world.. And his sister send her regards to Me. Oh-so random of her. Hahah. It was kinda sweet though. Going home was something.

We watched a "freak show". This Chinese man was standing near us and he did weird things with his pair of legs. Twisting it inwards and around and resting both of his sole back to back. Imagine that. Our attempt to snap his picture failed. He noticed us. Lol.

Little did I know that Razif had actually bought tickets to the Singapore Flyer for our previous anniversary. Here's the story..

I planned to have dinner at Fisherman's Wharf. And coincidentally, Ain too wanted to have dinner there. So ok, we ate there. I only told Razif that they were joining us when we were on our way. I should have said it at Tamp itself. Goodness gracious Me.. Me and Razif, Ain and Yazid. Ok. Then, the 'after-dinner' part was unplanned so we had no idea where to go. So, Ain suggested that we go for Shisha.. Ok. We went on. No buts and such.

Razif should have kicked my leg or stopped me or something. He should have really done something. It was an "in-prom-tu" planning. I felt really bad, really. And I offered to make up to him but he said that it's alright. He said that he was cool with it. But then again, I know he wasn't in a way. He wasted his money on Me just like that.. He told Me that money is not an issue. And that it can be earned back. It can't be compared with the time he had with Me.. Aww.. Sweet nye. Till this very point of time, I feel really bad. I offered him zoukout but he wasn't really in the mood for it.

I have a dilemma here. Should I go Zoukout or make up? Both are indeed important for me. I'll work it out.

All I can say is that I appreciate what you have done for Me, Razif.

2008-12-05T00:22:00.000-08:00

The SB-V2 Geng.

Queue lagi panjang tak da ke..

Rock it out!

Err.. What's next??

Stop! Take picture first..

Dah penat gue..

Apek cool pe..

2008-12-02T07:16:00.000-08:00

It hurts to see him cry in silence. Withered as he may seem but Strong as an ox, like he used to be. Commenting softly on his physic. I can only look and smile. Nothing I could do but, Smile. It aches oh-so often these days. I can just see the agony and pain in his semi-cataract eyes. Holding on strong with all the fucking internal problems within the brick house. He just bear the pain, All. He's truly someone that I look up to. My heart and windpipe hurts while typing this. You know the feeling when you wanna cry but you don't want to. Ashamed of crying in front of others as it may seem a defeat. He always advice me and still does when we do our mini and short talks; "Kalau sayang Yayi, jage diri baik-baik. Dengar cakap Mama. Jangan nakal-nakal." Oh Go! My eyes are red. Stop! Stop!It from flowing out.. It ease my eyes just to see him smile. =) I hate it when people are oblivious. Oblivious about the situation around them. Are you blind? Or are you an uncertified observer??

Life is really giving me all kind of challenges. From Alpha to Omega. I'm not giving up on anything now. Never. I will cherish my life more than ever. Loving what God has blessed me with. Life is too short for you to live. Please know what you are doing. Be filial to Mom. She's gonna pick you up when you're out and down. She loves you. She does.

Last but not least, failure DOESN'T kill you, it only makes you STRONGER ..

2008-12-01T02:28:00.000-08:00

Heelllo December !

Lazy as I am, pictures of Saturday night is on my Multiply. Go!

So little time. Try to understand that I'm trying to make a move just to stay in the game. I try to stay awake and remember my name but, every body's changing And I don't feel the same.. Always been judging and understanding others in silence.

I only see my dreams in everything I touch. Feel their cold hands on everything that I love; Cold like some. Magnificent skyline. Out of my reach. But always in my eye line.

Now .. IwantAnakMahat!!

2008-11-30T01:00:00.000-08:00

I'm too fly to be depressed by the broken promise. I understand. Study is utmost important. I'm okay now. I really am. I'm high due to the 3hour Sisha session with my Peepz. With yet another set of riddles to slove and cracked jokes. It was really great! Thanks for the company you guys! I smell like an apple mint now. What a scent. I love it! =) I think Mom's okay with Sisha. I think. Painted my nails blue. It'd be on till Starbucks' Open House; December 4Th 5pm-7pm. Do come and support us, aite? Drinks on the house babe and dudes!! =)

I like Anak Mahat!

2008-11-29T01:00:00.000-08:00

I would try to believe in the things I cannot see. But my faith is shaken now. Like it's never been before. When you promise and you break it. I don't know what I should do. Should I even count on you? So here I am once again with my back against the wall. Pissed and disappointed that I am. I try to understand. Was it ever enough? I don't understand.

I'm turning into the Chronicles of Life and Death for my music. They are just simply soulful and blessings to my ears.

IhateAnakMahat, still.

Sisha baby! Sishaaa!

p.s. I'm too fly to be depressed

2008-11-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

THEREVEALISCANCELLED.

IMUPSET.IREALLYAM.

BROKEYOURPROMISE.

DISAPOINTMENT.

JUSTLEAVEMEALONE.

NOMOODATALLFUCK.

IHATEANAKMAHAT.

2008-11-25T02:05:00.000-08:00

Quizzes results are in baby! An guess what?? 100% for my first ever Poly quiz; EMaths! ;p Hahahah. And as for the rest I got 75%-ish.. Baek per bedah! Lol. I'm done with that. And so did my "Gambling" Presentation. Now I'm facing yet another challenge; Term Test-ES!!! Stress banget deh gue.. Aduh! No more hanky-panky and my all relax mode. But I'm focused okay. We poly heads are now facing the "testing" season. Aaaaahhh.. It's healthy for the mind. I like! =) Anyway, Kiki's back! Have yet to see her hols snaps.. Soon.

I am all chill and there's no doubt about it.
I get things done my way and that's how it is.
I do judge and observe others in silence that's my nature.
I don't care what others think 'cause that ain't my interest.

If you don't like the things that I do, just fuck off !!

I like anak Mahat!! =)

2008-11-22T01:00:00.000-08:00

Am in randomly misfits of CKT. Lost in Bermuda as I claimed. Aargh! Am trying to put in the time but still within the attraction of Bermuda. But only a certain angle of attraction. Most of it I understand. Still, can't figure how in the blue hell can I find Total current when a Resistor is still unknown. On top of it, how do I calculate that fucking Resistor 4 alone?! The total Voltage is given but not the total Current. How tell me how?? CKT is to my disadvantage, to a certain degree. Am in need of Grace..

Goodbye! November. 8 more days to Hello! December. Many things are coming my way..

#1 Term test-ES

#2 Starbucks open house

#3 Twilight book discussion

#4 Zoukout[might be working for Zouk instead ;p]

#5 Twilight movie

#6 Christmas[double pay; should I work?]

#7 CDS thingy

#8 Countdown

Sucky.Suck.Suck.November.Fuck this feeling.

IwantBeckettNow !!

my current favourite; thanks to Su.. Love it! =))

2008-11-19T04:59:00.000-08:00

Look at Me now. I'm a mess. I'm craving for my bed of roses and soft lightings. Imaginative yes I am. My face "puffed up" due to this fucking fever and 24/7 runny nose. Plus everlasting teary eyes. Give me some Grace.. I need Dr Philip NOW ! Term testes are nearing! It bears weights. And test me whether I'm on the right track. Goodbye! to November and Hello! December. Slow down please.. It's been chaos, hectic, tied up, slaving, occupied, buried, engaged. Main word: BUSY. Zoukout tix this weekend. Pulling Beckett in. Hahah. Gulping down two Paracetamol soon.

Bye! Shuddup!

2008-11-18T02:16:00.000-08:00

I'm sick. Feverish feeling. =( Haish. It's fucking due to over exhaustion of mental strength.. 2 sucky quizzes in a day. Omg! And a presentation; thank God mine got postponed a week later.

Fuck! Twilight hits America. Gaga. M. Rosenberg is working on the other sequels. Yeah you heard me right THE OTHER SEQUELS; New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn.

Some people just don't know when to SHUT! their mouth. Horrible! Just "blapping" on and on like a spoilt radio that is NOT worth Mr. KarangGuni kachings. Boo! You ain't cool nor good looking. Oops! It's just a fact I'm stating. Disadvantage huh? I'll SHOUT AT YOUR FACE the next time you "blap" again. Just shut the hell up #&$*#^#.

p.s I wanna go Popcorn this weekend.

2008-11-15T01:00:00.000-08:00

Places we went were all like "abandoned" in a way. A negative way. Why do people still go to these places? Only they know la ehk. Will never go to Velocity and United Square anymore. The place is superbly boring. Imagine the shops are closing at barely 8pm. How to make business like that seh?? Siow uhk?

"Stupid people are making a big "hu-ha" about these."

Drained from school we are. Mentally. We decided to sleep together. Not having sex la u big fuck! Shallow! I know what you are thinking. It's not that you moron. We are literally sleeping together, in the bus. Ahhhh.. Nice short nap indeed. Steadily place my head on his shoulders and cling on his firm bicep. Later on, he lean his head on mine. Awwww.. Soon enough we were asleep. How nice.. ~Lalalla

p.s I can't wait for the "reveal" on the 29th. ~Weeeee